For The Sake Of Interpretation. Read Count : 107

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Sometimes what we say or think is different than how we act or live. There is a special irony of life that comes into play on many levels. Some call it the “Circle of Life.” The confusion between the battle our hearts and our minds is an area of which there are no answers. It’s an area up for interpretation. That we create. For ourselves. Not for others to create for us. Your interpretation is your responsibility. When we fail to devote effort in how we interpret how things really are, we leave it to others to create for us. When many interpretations mix, the original one is soon forgotten.

One lesson I came to realize over the last year that has come as an unexpected, although already known realization, is that nobody in this world is perfect. Nobody. Especially myself. It is said that all we can do is be the best person we can be. In reality, we all have so much more potential than that.

The accountability we refuse to accept for ourselves and towards others, is the unspoken excuse(s) that we all use that no one ever admits to. Because that allows for us to selfishly act out in ways that, we otherwise, would be ashamed to admit to. Which allows others to do the same. It’s the ultimate enabler. It’s “The Perfect Secret. “

The belief we have that “We are humans and we make mistakes” is just an excuse we convince ourselves of for justification. But, even more so to allow each other to do the same while we agree to not be hypocritical towards one another. In public that is. Because as we all know, mass gossip and judgment takes place upon us when we are not around to defend ourselves.

That seems to be the governing factor in life. Again, it is not that we are human and we make mistakes. Though that is true, it should not be a way to live by and accept when it is as vague as it is. We accept it as such because it justifies high levels of it. It leaves us unaccounted for all of the doubt. The more doubt we create, the more gray area there is. That gray area is where the majority of the human experience lives. In doubt.

Don’t create gray area. That is one factor I hold true in many aspects of life is not one to place the blame on, but one that should be taken with more responsibility than we, once again, allow.

Some inevitably learn, but always overlook the source of how it comes to be. That being the people we surround ourselves with.

As the saying goes: “You are the company you keep.” As much as I hate to admit it, it is true. I have hung around A LOT of people that society has labeled as sinners or bad influences. But, just because one looks at others with judgment doesn’t give them the authority on who they are as a person. This doesn’t negate that most are just flat out pieces of shit either. But, it also doesn’t give another the right to judge. Especially when they do nothing to help these assumed corrupted souls see a better way.

Very few people if, if any, know the real me. I’ve done a lot of “bad” things that society frowns upon. Like a lot. Still do. In reality, I’m a bad seed. A terrible one honestly. But, I will argue that I am not. Most others would too. Because I have done some highly selfless things to help others in times of need. No matter the time or sacrifice. Majority have gone unknown and many more unappreciated. But, a million good deeds doesn’t negate that I make selfish decisions. I may have standards of myself set to a level that leaves me forever disappointed in myself. But, that in no way means I am of others. My interpretation of my duties in life fulfilled, does not mean I do not admire or envy others who can feel less capable by my self interpretation.

Some people are worth more to me than I let them realize. I wish they did. But, because we place our judgment in the hands of extremist, we will always set ourselves up for failure. Never meeting the standards of which we are told are obtainable. Ultimately, losing the feeling that joy brings into our lives.

Standards of who a person is or is viewed as isn’t necessarily a perfect interpretation of who they are. If people had something like their own guilty consciences and shame exposed to the world then maybe our own vulnerabilities could be our reason to connect or bond, rather than to judge. Another’s struggle or mistakes are not up for someone to judge. They are up for interpretation. Especially since you haven’t been in their position or in a situation that they are deserving of. It doesn’t mean you are not good enough. It just means that they are. If you’re not helping someone move forward for their sake, you’re pushing them backwards for your own.

We all have the gift of free will in this universe. It’s a powerful one to place on such an inexperienced yet complex mind such as mankind. We shouldn’t accept that we can only be the best we can be, because we don’t know what that is.

When people say life is hard. I reply “Compared to what?” We know nothing else. We can take from what others before us have done and develop an interpretation, as such, to guide us throughout this chaotic illusion called life. We are all just as capable as the next person. It is just a matter of sacrifice, effort, determination and will power.

It is true, “If you believe, you can achieve.” We all should strive to be “The best we think we can be.” Instead we all make excuses for each other just to allow ourselves to settle being. “The best that we only have to be.”

Just remember that if you were able to be corrupted, it means that you always were. That doesn’t mean that you or others aren’t capable of change. It also means another can too. Be “All In or All Out” in what you dedicate your time and energy into. Anything else is gray area.

Live in the Darkness or live in the Light. But, for the sake of others choose where you want to be. The time spent in or away is the doubt that causes our problems with each other. This is also where we don’t spend time trying to understand what makes us comfortable or realize the truths of ourselves. Or admit our intentions on how we negatively view others to make ourselves look better.

Don’t step out only when it is convenient for you. Sometimes the solution to our issues are merely just a step in the other direction. But, as stated, this is all up for interpretation.

Darkness doesn’t last forever, as the Sun will eventually rise again. Leaving some to finally see all that they were overlooking the entire time. Which, that in itself, should not need interpretation. That is just the “Circle of Life.” Which, unfortunately, some will never be able to fully interpret.

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    Apr 05, 2018

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