Category : Poems

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MY MONSTER DIDN'T WIN 

You took all my pureness,
For your own sick selfish pleasure.
You took away my innocence,
Made sure I was available at your leisure.

It started with a cuddle,
And then a little kiss.
It quickly turned more sinister,
Leading me to write you this.

Why did you do it I always wonder??,
What made you want me like that??.
It's sick and wrong and should never have  happened,
You are An Evil Monster, that's a fact.

When you forced your penis into my hand,
and covered it up with your duvet.
I had to learn quickly to get it right,
Like the actors in the movie.

When you forced your penis inside my mouth,
Did it feel good that you were choking me??. 
You pulled my hair hard as you pushed in further,
Tears fell so fast out my eyes that I could hardly see.

I'm struggling to breathe now,
The panic has started to rise.
All of a sudden there is a funny taste,
As you come hard with your surprise.

When you forced your penis inside of me,
The pain almost too much to bear.
You stopped the first time when you saw the blood,
But the second time you didn't care.

You held your hand over my mouth and nose,
I was fighting so hard for some air.
I was also trying to deal with the pain,
That you were inflicting on me down there.

When you forced your head between my legs,
And licked me until I came.
You took away my dignity that day,
And left me with so much shame.

I didn't want it to feel so good,
But it was better than being hurt.
I don't know why I kept going back,
I should have fought you from the start.

When you put other things inside of me,
While playing with yourself till you burst.
You sit at the bottom of your filthy bed,
And don't stop till you cum on my chest.

You made me feel so small and dirty,
In the most embarrassing ways.
To be used and abused and violated like this,
For so many of my childhood days.

I've blamed myself for far too long,
It's you that was at fault.
You used me for your own sick needs,
You should be left to rot.

I shouldve told someone at the time,
But you scared me into silence.
You made sure I was completely terrified,
You even threatened me with violence.

Do you know what that does to a little girl??,
So young and pure and insecure.
You took everything good I knew in the world,
And turned it all into something so sour.

I should have been allowed to play,
Normal games like hide and seek.
Instead the games you made me play,
Left me feeling powerless and weak. 

What was it about me that you wanted like that??,
I was only a little girl.
People like you I will never understand,
You don't deserve to be in this world.

I can't get my head around this problem,
No matter how much I try.
People like you liking children,
I'll never understand the reasons why.

Does this all haunt you as well??,
When you think about what you done??.
Or don't you ever think about it??,
Or do you still do this for fun??.

I hope one day you think of me,
And feel remorse for what you put me through.
But I won't waste another second of my life, 
Being scared or intimidated anymore by you.

I'll leave you now to live your life,
You failed in breaking me.
I'm passing you my guilt and shame,
I will finally be free.

You will live in a prison, 
Forever inside your head.
Even though there are no metal bars, 
You have my guilt and shame instead.

I will end this now I've had my say,
I've had the final word.
I've survived the things you did to me,
And with help I'll be free as a bird.