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Hello there my name is Cherekee Kinney. I am your average 22 year old. I have had a lot of experiences in my life and some of the things I am about to tell people might upset some of those I care about and I am sorry for that but I am writing this to show those who have come from a rocky past just like I did and some have had far worse. Things will get better. I know that so here goes everything.

I was born on January 15, 1996 to a mother who worked her butt off for me, my brother and my sister. I was also born to an alcoholic father who left when I was 4 or 5 I am not 100% sure why or what actually happened back then because I have blocked most of my childhood from my mind which is not a good thing because I don't remember the good things to. I moved around a lot. I lived in motels a big chunk of my life. I met a friend in kindergarten and she was my best friend and I loved hanging out with her on the playground of my grade school. I remember running into one of the basketball poles and landing right on my bottom and it hurt so bad and she was right there to help me up off the ground she was the sweetest girl I knew. I remember having my name made fun of by a boy on the bus. I remember going down to the park a couple blocks from my grandma's house with a couple neighborhood kids. I loved going to grandma's I loved playing in her lot with all my cousin's filling a toy washer and dryer with little green tree frogs with my little brother and my older cousin Charli. We use to love playing together now we barely talk. I remember sitting on blankets with all my cousins watching the fireworks on fourth of July. While the adults joked around in the background barbecuing and talking about how things were going everyone liked being around each other. I moved to Greenville for awhile only thing I remember from that was my mom walking 9 and a half hours to and from Carlyle just to support us and my sister stealing food because we barely were surviving I know it was wrong but she was trying to help us. 
Then in 2007 I moved to Arkansas with my mom step dad Jason my sister who was pregnant with my oldest nephew and my little brother  leaving behind everything  we knew just to have a new start the first place I lived was a house behind Matt my sister's boyfriend at the time mom's house where I met another girl who would become a good friend of mine and that was Matt's sister Courtney and Matt's brother Chance. Then I moved to a trailer park called LMJ trailer park where I would meet people who would stay in my mind and heart  forever and my best friend Lizz who even as we fought we stayed friends the only girl that I don't care how much we don’t talk will forever be like a sister to me. She stuck by me through thick and thin.
I moved around a lot in Arkansas to. I lived in the middle of nowhere and met a boy named Ryein who was a good guy even though he acted tough he was a big softy and meant a lot to me but now won't even talk to me. but I also met people at school who taught me many lessons like how it felt to be cheated on for the first time. Then I Moved to another place where I met a boy who all he wanted was sex and I gave it to him one time and regretted to this day.
Then I moved back to Illinois in 2010 and everything seemed different my aunts and uncles couldn't be in the same room and it kills me because there was a time that we loved being around each other now it seems like they hate each other and can't be in the same room as each other but then I met the boy who would become the man I marry. Then my step dad who was with my mom for ten years left us and everything fell apart my mom was in jail my sister wasn't around I was just barely in high school and my life was falling apart at the seams and my thoughts were so dark that came to my mind and I went in to a depressing place and It was crazy. I got off a bus from a school trip and my sister called and said mom was in jail and then about a week later the owner of the trailer I lived in gave me two weeks to get all my stuff out of the trailer we were living in because we were evicted and I was so stressed out because my sister was on the carnival and I had her two kids and one was only almost a year old and the other was going on 4 and I had them to worry about I was so stressed and my future husband was there every time I fell apart he held me. it was rough then we got kicked out of where we were staying and had to stay with my aunt and uncle but I had to be out of there right after graduation and so on graduation day instead of me celebrating I was moving and that was my choice. It was rough. Now I have a decent paying job I am in my own place I'm Married to the greatest man I Know. Yes, I get in a bind every now and then but I know
when one door closes another will open. I love my life and everyone should keep their heads held high because one day their going to be okay maybe not live in a huge place or have a ton of money but you will be able to put yourself in a better environment remember this world is tough but you are tougher