Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

   You want to repel the force of love before it could even touch you. It doesn't matter what it gives to change your mind, the chains will forever prevent the happiness to wander. Wander in your thoughts. Wander into your words. And to wander into you're heart. 
      I once thought that one day you would change the darkness that roams within and lives throughout your body. What you were feeling back then was all nonsense to me. It was assured to you that I would wither away after wasting my time caring for the person I love. Well I'm still here waiting for you to change the blackness in your heart. 
       In the end, you really did what I had hoped for countless times. Changing what you believed in love. First, it was all just hesitations, but then you completely pulled through. You were finally able to break through your chains that could've drowned you in your flowing cells of blood. Those shackles had disappeared away, but not far from you. They happened to reappear....
       Into my heart. I loved until I was loveless. The hopelessness of ever trying to love you again as I did before. It pained me because the depression was rapidly growing. Your body couldn't help me love your touch again. Your words were nothing but meaningless fragments. Anything you did to try and cure my love ...never broken the chains that were drowning me in my own flowing cells of blood.
       Now you go away just as you pressured me to. I didn't leave because I didn't know what you were suffering through, but now I realize. Now I want you to leave me be because I want the same thing. Not having to waste your time on me. 
      This feeling is heartless and is no longer nonsense to me. I can now feel the loveless chains drowning me. The loveless chains that flow within my heart and from there throughout my body. Forever the chains will keep away my chance to ever love anyone or anything else again.