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I’ve played a role in my head that doesn’t even exist

I’ve told myself you were coming back to send me off to bed

I go to school early every day hoping by the time I come back you are home waiting for me

At school I tell my friends you are the greatest person ever

My friends envy me because of the image I portray to them

I buy myself staffs and lie to myself you bought them for me

I kept a diary that says so many good days about you and I that never existed

I tried to call you but you never picked up nor get back to me

Sometimes I just wanted to tell you about my day

On my birthdays I will sit next to the phone and wait for your call until mommy tells me to go to bed

I try to remember the little memories I have with you but they were never enough

When I asked people they say you are not what I think you are

But I had faith in you and I never listen to what anyone said because I had hope you’ll come back

My siblings say you are not going to come back they had much memories of you but they didn’t love you like I did

It’s sad how I don’t even know what to miss about you but what’s more sad I know you are alive somewhere and you just didn’t care

When time elapsed I’ve realised you were just another father who had abandoned his child

But even with those thoughts I was willing to forgive you as long you came back and so I waited

My waiting became days and my days became years and my father never came back home but yet he lives