His Heart Wants What It Wants
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As i moved to the music last night my vision saw him driving up North. His route home. My heart faltered a bit. In a far away place i saw him. His emotions numb. His mental in fight mode. His heart sad. His spirit forlorn. His soul so dark. He misses the light. I know he thinks of me. I know he sits on his couch and looks to the right. I know he lays down and curls up falling asleep. I know he wishes i would walk through that door. He rises to stand on the balcony my SUV no longer parked below. I know he just accepts me gone. He doesnt stay there long. He leaves to NY. Sits in her home staring out the window at the hudson river. He looks at the water and he feels sad. I am gone. He knows he destroyed everything that i am. He stares at the woman who he knows will never know his secrets. She doesnt care about him. She cares about her image. She wants him to love her, to kiss her, to make love to her. He wont. He will NOT touch her. He wants what his heart wants. His heart drives him to face reality. I am his heart. Miles across the USA. Our Fate sealed. The rest of our lives our hearts will beat as one. I however will live for my Joy. Ill miss him the rest of my life. I will mourn our loss. However he was correct i deserve someone who loves me as i am. Someone who loved all of me. So far Jehovah has comforted me. Im beginning to laugh deeply, heal rapidly, and blossom into who i really am. A woman with a little girl within. I want to be loved properly. 33 years too long. I have protected my little girl soul since age 6. Time to finally breathe. #Tiltedpetalsofarose #BobbysLoveSong#
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