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So you know there's a part in the relationship when pain is inflicted. And when that pain is afflicted sometimes we feel as if it's just the worst. This pain that I'm going through I wouldn't wish this on nobody not even my worst enemy. Those are the words that we use when we get hurt by a significant other or a friend family relative Etc. We use different words to describe our pain why is it that the first word we use is death. I feel like I'm dying, I can't breathe, I can't take this. We literally prepare ourselves for a long funeral. What I mean by a long funeral is once the pain is inflicted we put our lives on hold, we get lost in replaying the incident, we start making preparations for this funeral ceremony to take place, we keep announcing it, we grieve as if someone has really died, we choose the casket, we also pick the burial site(along with the grave area). Like we pick out our outfit, the make up, shoes, hairstyle, the songs the list goes further. We do all of this just to mentally put ourself in a box, put the box in the ground, throw some dirt on the casket, shed our tears, reminisce about the good times, dwell on where we went wrong. We even prepare the eulogy " here lyes Dolores Walker. Dolores found out on February's 20th that the temporary love of her life cheated on her with her best friend in Dolores's mother's house over Easter break. Dolores's heart literally broke into a thousand pieces and she died from a heart break. How could you do this to me I trusted both of you. Priceless saying I know many of us can relate with this one. We accept our fate (the cheating) and we put our self in that ground and let loved ones reel us down. We lay in the earth for literally 3 to 6 months some times years. So once it's time to get back reality we done dug a deeper hole that we can't get out of. Mental funerals are the worse. Preparing yourself to die is always easier than living right no its harder to be dead than to live. Think about the painful feeling you get to not be able to see family, friends, your children, or do the things you love to do most. Picture seeing yourself at your funeral and how unaccomplished you'll feel. Like you didn't have enough time to do this or that. Heart breaks and aches are meant to hurt not for long but not to live in either so stop mentally paying for unnecessary funerals before it turns into your real funeral.