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People tend to say, "Just forget about her." or, "Just move on." oh and my favorite, "You just need to get back out there!" 
Over the last couple years I've tried all those things. I tried going out. I went to a gym for a little bit. I'd work a lot. I tried seeing other people. I've been traveling to different places.i take photography and even dress up in suits and go out in public just to give myself more confidence. Hell, I even moved to a different state to try and get away. Nothing works. I know I know,  I'm only 21, I've got my whole life ahead of me, there are plenty of fish in the sea yada yada etc etc... Look. Not everyone is able to get over someone easily. For me,  it's been over 2 years and 4 months. And we were only together a year and a month. But that was honestly the happiest year of my life. Now I feel I'm truly haunted by her. I see her in everything wherever I go. The music that I listen to, in the people that I try to connect with. I'm just so tired of feeling alone but I yearn for her company... Sadly though she has had a boyfriend for quite awhile and is actually having a baby... And honestly I'm happy for her. I'm hoping that she finds happiness in life... I just wish it was me that could have given her the happiness. But anyway it seems that I can't escape her, even in my dreams. Every story I write is based off an event that either happened to me or an emotion I've had. It sucks but my best works come from pain and suffering, which again sucks. But in the end, we can't help who we are.