Category : Diary/Journal

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Its Sunday morning February 25, 2018. I lay in bed waiting to see how I will feel today. I feel hopeless, numb, empty. What's the point of me even geting out of bed today? My next thought is challenge your negative thoughts, so I do. It didn't work, I don't understand the numb empty feelings that I have. My mind is going 100 percent of the time. It never stops. Peace never comes. My head is groggy and dizzy. That feeling is familiar but unwanted. I take a deep breath and know that I'm alive but it feels surreal. I feel like everything of me is lost. My soul,mind and everything that makes me "me" has vanished. If I was to disappear it wouldn't matter. I'm gone, left with just a hollow shell. I want desperately to escape my life, to find peace and comfort within my soul. There was a time where light excited me and joy would burst deep in my heart. Hope was present and peace had a home. Over the years I noticed pieces missing, the light in my heart started to dim. As I sit here today, I don't know where I stand. I feel lost and lifeless. I'm losing my strength for a better day. Either im going to give up or strive for a better