Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

I remember it well. The day you fell to your knees in front of me and begged me to forgive you. You said you made a mistake and that it wont happen again. You gave me a gift bag with a blue sweater in it. How could i not forgive you when the blue sweater resembles the oceans , how could i not forgive you when the sweater resembles the sky full of promises even the beast of the air can't get enough of it.

I remember my heart pounding and praying and begging everything that is holy for you to tell me you didn't do exactly what i think you did. And in that moment of my internal prayer begging for your salvation begging for my salvation , that was when my worst fears were revealed in front of me, but somehow i knew....

I knew that when you said you were busy you were with her, i knew that when you said you were going to meet your friends you meant you were going to see her. I knew it from the way you suddenly taking your phone calls outside the room. I knew it when i wanted to use your phone you snatched it out of my hands like it was a plague. 

I knew it when you started being distant, but i didn't want you to say it to. I remember telling you i forgive you because i ddnt want to hear it. But you said she didn't mean anything, my head started spinning as i imagined every worst scenario. 

I remember my knees couldn't hold me anymore i fell down to my knees and you sank down with me. You said you couldn't do it anymore, you couldn't continue himurting me behind my back. But i don't know what 's worst you telling me that you have been cheating on me or me not knowing that you have been seeing another lover behind my back. 

At that moment i didn't care about my ego, i ddnt care about how i would look. But i begged you to take it back i didn't want to know. I could deal with you seeing other lovers besides me as long as i ddnt know. That is how much you shattered my ego, you bruised it till it was covered with scars i couldn't wash away. Yes that is how much i loved you. 

You gave me a blue sweater full of life hope i clang on it like it was life. How could i not forgive you when you gave me a blue sweater resembling the oceans and the beautiful creatures that dance to the sound of its waves.
How could i not forgive you when you gave me a blue sweater that resembles the color of the sky and the birds that dance to the melodies produced by its wind.

I remember having an internal war with myself, i wanted to let you suck it, but my ego was already lying on the ground i had to forgive you. You sent my ego six feet under and i had to forgive you. You shattered my heart into a million pieces and i had to forgive you. You broke my spirit my body was left without a soul and i had to forgive you.

You said it was only three months and it ddnt mean anything, fuckin three months i remember shouting it to myself because my voice was to clogged to sound anything but weary. And i didn't wanna give you the satisfaction because in those few minutes you had already taken everything from me. We have been together for two years and you fuckin go cheat on me for three months, i remember thinking to myself because my voice left me behind with my shattered heart.

You continued to say she ddnt mean anything to you but why do i feel like shit if it didn't mean anything. Why am i the one hurting. How could i be the one paying off for your sins. How did my heart end up being collateral damage to your love affair. Why am i the one whose getting her heart ripped from her chest.

You gave me a blue sweater and said you're sorry it was a mistake and i had to forgive you. You gave me a blue sweater that resembles the sky how could i not forgive you. You gave me a blue sweater that resembles the oceans how could i not forgive you. You broke my heart and how could i not forgive you. You said you were sorry it wont happen again, although deep down i knew you were lying but how could i not forgive you.