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I am so thankful for my previous break up. I broke up with a woman who I thought was the 'love of my life' about 2-3 years ago.

I actually thought 'okay, my worst wide awake nightmare has come to life'.

I was heartbroken at the time.  This girl was honestly my best friend at the time.  We lived together for about 7 or 8 months.  We had a cushy life together.

When we split, I thought I woud NEVER find someone again.  Now, its true to say i haven't found another woman yet.  However, that break up was the kick in the ass i needed.  I had to re evaluate myself, my psychology and work on my relationship skills.

In truth, I am an introvert type of person.  I LOVE spending time alone.  I am very very independant.  As a result, I have got into a 'selfish' routine.  My ability to have tolerance or compassion for people has been diminished over the years.

I essentially lost her to find myself.  That break up was the catalyst to kick start my writing/blogging/music career again.  I may have never started writing again.  All those negative emotions NEEDED someone to be released.  I adore writing & my catharsis lay in self expression and writing.  

I am abstinant now, working on my skills and paying more attention to my authentic feelings.

I miss what we had but....after all the turmoil...all is not lost. ♡