Category : Poems

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Shallow--I cant breathe--not shallow breathing -- but drowning in shallow waters. The tide just blanketing my feet--cold --no--nothing--my feet are gone --swallowed--I can not feel--deeper I stride-- not of my conventiion--intention--yet forward --forward still--like wind to the rain--my t body against the ocean--a gravity --you cannot -- a force pure --untainted now touched --is not a question--it just is...my legs--not mine, not attached-- two methodical phantoms marching on --without question they follow the chant-- the howling banshee --the voice of darkening see--and my body now coveted --obedient shivers, not in fear but lack of, because of--tantalizing hollow seduction --numb-- I quiver-- unrelenting , "Take me, Take me."


And for a moment I am free---above me swells Poisedon--Master of the deep---with his bow he crowns me --- a pryer before his sacrificial feast --- inhailing --im pulled in deep --not in surrender---but in holding on(to the 'the' that's long been gone) lapped and sliding he swallows me----but as truth would have it and this crazy life too--he spit me out --to sour--not yet ripe enough for the god of power--- and back to shore he flung me and now I must learn to be---me?





Just a tip--and for myself too---

Letting go is far too easy---seducingly so--

so when the moment tempts you--xx

be it beacuse of friend or foe,---

or failing to find purpose --

or beacuse you've fallen mute and lost all hope--

-there's are no signs for you --

when there's nothing left at all--

except the will to let it go---

Remember you may fall down---

and scream in condemnation for every sin ---

you may give-up, give in--

and surrender every truth you know ----

BUT ----remember ----its not the going down

or the sinking deep

or even being swallowed

thats hard---

its comming back up --in that bitter salty bile---

and the headache that's left from rejection denial.

and what's left???? Hahaha

-the repititious echo---

"I told you so...told you so...told you so."

Its the same shit you already know.

And your back 'here' ---

where you started --living a lie--

cause not even death could hear your cry--

instead he gagged and spit you out ---

and now you'll have to pay a shrink

To figure this shit out