Category : Diary/Journal

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I know now that I am meant to be alone. I don't want to be but this is the unrelenting truth I have come to realize. I can always be there for my friends when they need me. I know how to help them. But when it comes to my love life though I am there to mess it up. I don't know how not to I guess. Always cheated on so I guess I'm not enough. Or like the last, not even  good enough for a goodbye. I try my hardest to give someone everything I can but in the end it is never enough. I've excepted my fate now. It definitely demolishes my soul to know that I will be alone. I lay awake at night trying to think of reasons why. Perhaps I'll never know. Maybe I did something in a past life that u can never come back from. I wish it wasn't this way. I have so much love to give but when you give so much love to the wrong person over and over you slowly lose hope in that you will have enough for the right one. I will be alone and to except this gut wrenching fate is more than terrifying but to not would be the downfall of my life. So I will wake up everyday with a smile I put on till I'm alone in my room surrounded by my thoughts again and cheer on the love I see in others. Love will never be for me. I know this now.... I just wish it was for me.