Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

I know that I have a lot to learn, I know that I wouldn't be the man I am today or know some of the things that I've learned because you left me because you decided you didn't need me anymore. But, I also know that if you were here I may not be as much of an adult as much of a man or know some of the things that I know now. Yet, I do know that I would feel safe in my heart and I also wouldn't make some of the mistakes that I'll still make just because I don't have you to check with, when you were still on the tip of my tongue like I did for those first two years after you said goodbye. Having you so close in my head back then, while it was good and safe and some ways, those nights of missing you, crying so hard , dying inside. Every single day I was dying more and more.  So, I have to take the good with the bad.., the bad with the good..., and hope that maybe the real me will meet somewhere in the middle. Not the best me, because you see the best me had you by his side. I shall now look inward for the answers. Then, I will decide how or if to go on.