Category : Adult

Sub Category : Graphic novel

I woke up this morning feeling as if i had nothing to look forward to, sad part was my supposed better half was right next to me. I remember when waking up to him use to mean everything to me but as 9 long years have gone by we seem as if we had lost the flame in our relationship. He once gave me chills now i cant stand the sight of him. As i looked at his sleeping face i reminisced on what use to be, which reminded me of how much i use to love him, and I still do, but after almost a decade of lies, infidelity, deception, and secrets, it finally began to weigh down on me, i wasnt IN love anymore. 
    I slipped outta bed, hoping not to wake him and went to prepare myself for work. As i got ready to shower i caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. Look at me, im 28 with a Master's Degree in Business, a fly condo right in the heart of Atlanta, driving a 2018 Charger and it's still 2017. Yet, Keith has no job, no money, no goals, but 3 children plus 1 in question. Might i add all of them or 7 years old or younger and they are not by me. Crazy right? I've longed for a child since i finished college however one of us was luckier than the other. i didn't deserve this, nor did he deserve me, but yet im still here. I often question myself what's keeping me here and I haven't come up with the answer yet. Seems like the agony of this thing is routine and Ive become numb and blind to all of the bullshit.
    As I began to lose myself in my thoughts, i felt my robe loosen and drop to my ankles, a hand pull my hair to the side and soft kisses on my neck. "You tryna sneak off before you give daddy some lovin?" Said Keith, trying to seduce me simply because he wanted the car while i was at work.I knew his game, i just played it to keep the dramatics to a minimum."No, i just thought i would go ahead and get a head start since i was already up" i told him. He then pulled me close from behind. I felt his soldier throbbing on the back of my bare thigh. "Assume the position" he said bending me over the sink. As he slid inside me i began to moan as he slapped my ass and pulled my hair. Sounds exciting right? Well, it was all fake. I think i may have had more fun acting like i enjoyed more than actually having sex. Over the years the "bend me down over the sink" thing had become so routine that it was pretty much predictable. I was bored with everything about him and there definitely aint no denying that.
   After he came, i proceeded to shower and get ready for work. When i was ready i tried to hurry towards the door before he could catch me but as soon as i twisted the knob there he was right behind me. "baby ill drop you off," he said " I wanted to do a little job hunting today,you know, to help you carry the load of things around here,". If i had told him no he would've thrown a fit about him being stuck in the house all day and me not being able to trust him so i surrendered the keys without saying a word but i didnt have the energy to give that argument today.
     As we got into the car he began to run me this bs about going to look for a job and it being hard because of his criminal background and mistakes he made in the past blah blah blah when we both knew that he probably would either be with one of his baby mothers or some other chick he has been seeing. But what he doesnt know is that my car has a gps tracker and my house has a security package that both link to my cell. I knew everything. Where he was, who he was with, hell even saw the bitches he had between my sheets, but i have yet to say anything. I dont wanna start all over again, i dont wanna be alone anymore. I knew that this ammo would eventually become shots fired. I was just waiting on my moment.
   As he dropped me off at my office i reminded him to be there at 5pm sharp as he has left me stranded for hours before. He leaned in for a kiss and i got out of the car as if i didnt see him. I found myself bitter because i knew the truth, we both did. "Have a good day Keisha.I love you," he yelled as he pulled away.
  When I arrived at my desk my secretary notified me that i had an appointment with a client in less than 20 mins. I guess the despair on my face was obvious, so i had to pull myself together and get Keith and the misery he brings off of my mind because this was a huge account that i had to get and it was go time.
   Shortly after i became prepared, in walks the most gorgeous creature i think God ever created. He was about 6'2, skin like chocolate silk, and his eyes were a seductive hazel like a little touch of heaven was added to his soul. "Good Morning Ms. Washington" he said with the brightest smile I'd ever seen. Although he had me out of it for a second, i kept my composure. "Good Morning to you as well Mr. Braxton but please call me Keisha." "Hmmm Keisha, i like it, it fits you" he replied, "and since we're on a first name basis, you can call me Jamelle."