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Once again... I was knocking at your door... 
Despite the last time's "NEVER"... I tumbled on your floor...
I know it's not ideal n perfect ...but that's where my heart wants to go...

Once again at the meeting of our gaze ... I had that funny blushing face...
And when i heard your voice again...my heart ran a hundred miles...
Yet again me failing  to address why does it always run 'towards you' ... 
Even when i have tamed it to go the other way a million times...

I thanked all my Lords.. when there was no dreaded awakwardness.. and you were talking fine ...
Asking me where i have been lost all this while...making me think maybe just maybe you missed me this time...

But once again you swift away like a wind ... No no no more like a tornado for my tender within... 
Cause once again you just gave me a glimpse and left me behind.... 
You closed all your doors... And retrieved in your shell... 
Not letting me know how you were doing inside...

Hell no i can't take it no more ....
Sorry I am a human goddamnit so stop treating me like an untouchable or a whore ...
I am not gonna bite you nor am i that fragile that you can break me somemore...

All i wanted was to stay connected and honour the connection we had found  ... 
Not just bcz its lonely sometimes out there despite a whole wide world and nobody should be living lost or a hard life ... But bcz it's even harder to find someone like you amidst the engulfing darkness of the shadows ..
who still remembers how to  shine bright... 
And also bcz Its hardest... to love a complete stranger equivalent to your family and friends ... letting them into your worlds... sharing with them pieces of your soul... Yet you find this ecstatic bond unable to sublime...

You may think she is here to steal my light... Or i don't wanna dive deep into her eyes... 
I wish you knew it hurts... that i will never know what's going on in your beautiful mind ... Even if i tried...
Cause you leave me directionless at the fence eachtime ... 
I sing I smile I laugh I cry ..
I let you see me all...but you find your ways of being busy and not try ... 

I get it thats your life ... you can live it as you like ....Maybe its your way to survive ... maybe you were just my heart n mind's illusion and a disguise ... I shall not question your safest choices and reasons for my demise...

But pls ohh pls if we ever cross paths again ...or if someday a gentle breeze reminds you of me again...
Pls don't ask how i have been next time ... Even if that's a killer instinct... Even if that's the only right thing... Whether you mean it or you just wanna be polite....

Cause i am gonna tell you ... I was at the fence ... Gently knocking at your doors... Peeping through the tinted windows...( Not trying to creep you out)... Cause your walls were pretty bold...  

And you didn't want to let me in
 or perhaps you forgot to open the doors ...
Leaving me out in the cold 
turning us into ...
STARDUST and GOLD !!!

Comments

  • Awesome poem 😊

    Feb 17, 2018

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