One Life And One Painful Truth Read Count : 145

Category : Stories

Sub Category : Fantasy
you were given the chance to do so would you live forever?
If your answer was yes I hope you are baring in mind that life will keep on with not only the good things but also the bad ones. 
Pain will prevail above all… Physical pain and psychological. And believe me when I say time does not heal all wounds. Especially emotional ones. Sometimes those gashes start to rotten. And a putrid smell from a decaying soul will surround you. Paranoia and delusion will be a constant part of your life. No one will understand the pain.
But It will stop hurting eventually and you’ll know that when this day comes it means part of you fell off. A piece of you just died completely. 
Little by little you’ll fall apart… you’ll change… maybe for better maybe for worse… but you’ll change to the point you don’t recognize yourself anymore. And there will be a day you will look in the mirror and ask yourself “am I alive or have I died already”. Then and only then you will understand the mess you are in. A vicious cycle. One you can’t stop. 
After a while you’ll be completely numb; pain doesn’t affect you anymore. If you used to believe in souls you’ll think you no longer have one. You won’t be able to love nor hate because why would you? Everything will perish whether you like it or not… everything except from you… you’ll be here until the end of days. The words life and death will mean nothing. you’ll be a prisoner of your own body.

And you’ll learn to hate again… hate yourself… hate others because you envy them… you’ll hate your god if you believe in one… you’ll hate existence itself…
I know…
Because I am that person.
I am the one who wished for eternity not understanding what it implied.
I am the one who made a mistake she has to live with forever.
I am the one who hates to live.
I am the one… whose life is a painful truth.
Don’t take me wrong I got  precisely what I wanted. Nobody tricked me into this lifestyle. This is the life I designed. Exactly as I pictured it. No more; no less. 
I asked for this… 
But turns out the truth is that I never knew what I wanted. I don’t think any of us know.
We roam around hoping to be happy, and sometimes we are sure that THIS (whatever THIS is)  is the thing we want; the thing we need. We are positive it will turn out great. We will be fulfilled.
Just be careful. Don’t go to far, don’t do something you’ll regret…
Most of the times THIS isn’t what you need but more so what you should avoid… so be careful what you wish for…
It might become a painful faith…

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