Category : Poems

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There’s a battle in my mind, 
it’s time to leave my past behind. 
I’ll cover up these scars, 
try to mend my broken heart; 
but it’s hopeless. 
I had a therapist.
We kept in touch, 
he told me this -
 “ you’ll never add up to much of what your goal is.” 
I guess I’m not cut out for socializing. 
I’m drained from trying to fit in. 
I’m constantly analyzing. 
I’m done hearing all your bullshit. 
You’re all talk, but you’ll never show it. 
I know that I’m hormonal, but that doesn’t mean I’m crazy. 
I try so hard to be normal, but lately it just don’t phase me. 
My pills keep shouting “Take Me!” 
But they just make me hazy. 
they don’t wanna know me, the just wanna control me. 
they can’t take the real me, just wanna conceal me. 
But I’m ready to show the world, 
who really is this girl. 
I don’t care if they’re not ready, 
I’m gonna show them anyway. 
I don’t now which side yet, 
I’m just gonna ride this ride, yea. 
See where the hell it takes me, 
tell them to fuck’n make me. 
Cause I’m drained from trying to fit in, 
I’m done hearing all your bullshit. 
I try so hard to be normal, 
they say I’m too hormonal; 
but try living with 2 different polars. 
One that’s on the honor roll, 
the other, a high roller. 
It’s a coaster with constant loops. 
The one they call Jesus, has me jumping through endless hoops. 
But I’ll cover up my scars, try and mend my broken heart. 
I give up on being normal, I don’t care what who says. 
I know that I’m hormonal, 
so I listen to what my meds says. 
When they shout “Take Me!” 
I know one day they’ll hate me, 
if the never break me. 
I’m done hearing your bullshit. 
when it comes to fitting in,
 I just don’t cut it. 
But try living with 2 different polars, 
and being surrounded, by nonstop controllers.