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When you left her, she had to figure it out. Is her figuring it out working two jobs to barely put food on the table? Does she come home at 1 am from working all day just to wake up at 5 or 6 am to do this again? When somebody asks her why she looks tired and she tells them the truth, did you imagine her answer would be different? Did she spend many nights awake helping the child you helped make feel better because they got sick? How many times have you took off work or risked losing your job because your child is sick? I'm sure she's done so plenty. You left for her to figure it out and forced her to do so. Are you spending days and nights doing whatever you please? When she says she needs help do you help her or tell her she's working two jobs she shouldn't need help? While she's figuring it out, you walked out on everything. She's figuring out how to teach the children to walk and talk and read and write. She's figuring out how to balance motherhood and being a working woman. She's figuring out how to balance her life with her child's. She's figuring out how to budget so if the child does get sick they can still continue to have a home and food. She figured out how to do this. You figured out how to live without having to just figure it out. Motherhood is hard. Having to figure it out on your own is harder. No woman should be left to figure it out. This goes the same for any man who had a woman walk out on him and left her kids behind. Those who lost their partner though death it's a different story. That person didn't leave for you to figure it out, life happened and had you figuring it out. I feel for all the single parents who were left to figure it out. I am a single mother. Yes I work two jobs and I wake up early and go to bed when it's technically morning. I've spent more time figuring it out than I should have but the one thing I never had to figure out was how to love and appreciate my children. I'm beyond thankful for my kids grandparents and aunts and uncles, even my own family who have helped me when I needed to figure it out. I've figured out how to forgive without an apology and apologize without forgiveness. I spent time thanking God for the three most amazing gifts in my life, as babies are truly a gift from God. I've watched God bless me and during the most troubling times, direct and guide me. I'm not perfect, but God forgave me. God helped me figure it out when my life was getting more difficult.