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I was talking to someone about a situation I was faced with and was pouring my heart out about how the said situation had somewhat rattled me. And you know what he said to me? He said, "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." 

Like, seriously???

It felt like a dismissal. It felt like as though the pain I was feeling was not a big thing and I should just get over it.

I mean, obviously the pain did not kill me but it is still damaging to a degree. I know that in time I will find a way to cope and maybe even eliminate the pain but at the moment, I am feeling like crap. Can't that be okay too? Can't he understand that? Can't some things just break you? Sheesh!

The way he had dismissed me made me feel like I was weak to even admit that I was hurt and in pain. It felt like as if no matter how much pain I was feeling inside, I am not allowed to bleed. I am supposed to suck it up and fake it at all times. To fake my emotions was expected of me. That's what it felt like; the dismissal.

I guess under masks is where most people feel safe. It is all about being in control than risk showing vulnerability. It was clear to me that he thought I was weak for being vulnerable. But he got it all wrong. Just because I am feeling vulnerable, it doesn't mean I am weak. I know exactly what I am made of. Even when inside it feels like I am dying, I will fight and I will keep on shining. I know I will succeed in getting through this because I know life will never give me any more than I can handle. All the darkness in the world can't extinguish my candle. My flame may dwindle like a candle in the wind, but my eternal spark of light.... that, can never grow dim.