Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

I don't know what to say to you.

We're at my house and we're doing our makeup
You take your hair out of its ponytail
And it tumbles around your shoulders
Magenta against black.
It was supposed to be purple.
Your cheeks are dusted pink and a holographic skirt clashes with an orange top framing your curves.
You're beautiful.
And I'm breathless.

You sit close to me and in the silence of the room I can hear your breathing.
Your soft, warm, pale skin dotted with freckles and your pink lips hover in my mind. 
I swear its not purely physical for me.
But I still can't look away.
I lean against you and its warm and happy and I feel like I'm floating.
And then our friend walks out of the bathroom and I have to move.
Damn it.
You're stunning.
And I'm speechless.

There are so many things I want to tell you.
Not just about how I feel for you.
I want to spill my soul to you.
But I'm scared.
Scared to get too close.
Scared to get hurt again. 
Trust is hard
But I believe that I could do it.
For you.
Anything for you.

I know that you love someone else.
That doesn't mean I feel any different.
And I know she doesn't love you.
And I'm petty for being this way.
But I don't care.
I want you.
I want to make you happy.
I want you to know I care about you. And I would do anything 
To make you happy.
Because you
Are everything 
To me.