Category : Books-Non-Fiction
Sub Category : Reference
Why wait, I've waited all my life. No one has come to save me, no one has noticed, no one has cared. I try to save my friends from killing themselves, but no one saves me. I don't cut myself, but I want too, I don't tell people that I'm depressed in less I can trust them. I listen to depressing songs and write depressing stories that no one cares about. So why wait I've been waiting hoping, crying, prying, wishing that one day someone ANYONE will save me. No one does, no one cares, surely not my family, and half the time my own dad will ignore me. My mom left me when I was little with my grandparents, hasn't called in 13 years. I call her but she never calls back, I took out all my hate on my little brother, he probably hates me too. My cousin doesn't believe a word out of my mouth, nor does my Nana, she loves my cousin over me. I was raped when I was 5, but will anyone care, no. Everyone will, like they do, say it's fake and move on with their lives. No one cares about a stranger, you don't know them so why should you. On the day I wanted to kill myself my dad buys my a ferret, now I can't kill myself because if so my sister will treat it poorly. She never here on the weekends, no one is for me. Right now I'm listening to "her last words" but do you care... No not really. My friends always say that they're going to kill themselves, soon, heck even my own Girlfriend said it today. She cuts herself and I always worry about her, but honestly why should I care! Why does anyone care! My dad pushed off that I have 2 personality's! Obviously he doesn't care, so why should I! It's not like they might kill me, or are screaming in my head for me to die. My friends push off that I'm depressed! Why so I even wait, I should just buy some rope and die! Do you guys care... Nope! Does anyone anymore... No! You guys probably think that this is all just another story, just another fake, Non-fiction story of mine. Nope! It's nice isn't it! To watch me slowly become more insean as you read! Well... Just tell me one reason why I shouldn't die, why I should just wait... Even more waiting... I know my ferret will be fine... He hates my too probably, he only needs me for food and water. Whatever.
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Zee Zulu
Nicole, first of all, i want to tell you that you are wrong. There are people out there who genuinely care. I care. Even though I don't know you personally and you are a stranger to me. I have spent a great deal of my life ever since I was a teenager looking out lor people like you. I am 50 now and I'm still doing it. I have brought a lot of troubled kids back to my home to stay with me. I have gone to back alleys to save prostitutes, drug addicts and other wounded and tortured souls out there. I have reached out to hardcore criminals in prisons all over America, UK and New Zealand. Was there any money involved? Was I getting paid for what I've been doing? No and no. I do it because I care. I do it because I have a lot of love in me. I do it to spread love and to show love. If you need someone to talk to, I am here for you. Anytime. The message facility is available for us to use. And if you want to know if I'm real or this is just some lip service, give it a shot and try me.
Jan 27, 2018
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It is a really big deal, YOU are a really big deal, and it means more than you know that you would put it out here and share your story with us. People can be disappointing, especially when you need help from them and it seems like no one wants or cares about what you are going through. So you lifted your voice, reached out, and you have done an incredibly good job expressing yourself. I am super proud of you and want you to know, I am here as well. Hit me up, keep sharing, You'd be surprised how much love there is in this world. We can't change what has past, but we do have to the power to take this moment, right now, and do our best to make today and tomorrow better. Thank you for sharing this.
Jan 27, 2018
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