Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

                      CHAPTER ONE
  Hi my names Emma, Emma Madison.  I'm no longer on Earth because I committed suicide. Well I'm not gonna tell you how now, but if you keep reading I'll tell you. So, this is all because of cyber bullying. The only person I ever told was Rose Dennison my internet friend, well my only friend. And I know you may be wanting to know alot of things but the main fact is I was only 9. The pain I was feeling you would never understand. It hurt so bad, but no one would help me get through it. I didn't tell Rose till the last minute, when it was to late. I never was willing to cry out for help for someone to fix me, I never wanted to. I was hurt both mentally and physically. Everyone just put me down but Rose. 
  I know some may be wondering how did I die well I didn't mean to kill myself. I was trying to cut but I went to deep. I slit a vain. I didn't want to die, but there was no going back now. I knew I was gonna die at that moment all I could do was scream and I was home alone to die. Now this is not the end of my story I have a whole past to explain. So grab a snack food popcorn and sit down and promise me to only read cause im gonna tell you the reasons of my past. No there was on intention of my death but if you knew me im sorry I really am it was an accident. Now lets tell you my story. 
                            
                       CHAPTER TWO
  
   So my life was rough and I tried to get through it, but I couldn't. It was to hard. My life was nothing but mistakes and regrets. I wish I was a computer so I could erase everything and restart. Nothing made sence, till it was to late. No one understood my life better than Rose. She was all I had left after the death my father. My mother on the other hand is always at work because I was a memory of father, and whenever she looked in my eyes she would see father. Now lets go back to when I was three when my father died. Now this was a car accident not any ordinary car accident my father was on his way to work when a car hit and knocked him off the bridge causing the wire to snap bringing down the bridge. 
So when I was four I started cutting. It hurt the most the first cut. When I was five I wanted to end everything. I worked myself into the trap. I was in the bathroom thinking about how and thought bleach. I looked in the bathroom cabinet an grabed the bleach. I was lucky not to take a drink but I almost did. 
  I thought there was no point of life, but soon after I almost drank bleach, I realized there's a meaning to life. The only thing that kept me going was Rose. So I live in Portland Oregon and Rose lives in Florida. We are both by water. She was ganna come visit me this summer but it was to late. It was almost the end of the year, I almost made it. Life just wasn't on my side anymore I didn't want to give up. I wanted to keep going, so I kept cutting. I hated everything wrong with my life, but I didn't want to die. I asked my mom so many times If we could move to Florida by Rose but I could never give a reason why. I hated not telling. One of the days of my horrible kindergarten I walked into my sisters room cause after school I wanted to see her. When I walked into her room I saw her dead on the floor she had the whole bottle of asprine. My sisters name was Sophie. 
              
                       Chapter 3
 I missed my sister so much. I was lucky I didn't come any sooner or I would have saw her killing herself. If I was still alive I'd be 12 and my sister would have been almost 20. My sister didn't have to swell of life eather she was raped. Well Im not gonna tell my sisters story that's for another time. So we all know Rose, well she has just as hard of a life as me. Well as you know Rose is for another time. So when I was six I can home from school and my mom was home, she's never home. She walked up to me and slapped me. She wasn't sorry. She thought I was a bad child when I never did anything.