Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

I believe in many chances to make things right; chances to start over, chances to redeem yourself, chances to prove your words, etc. However, there are times when we need to distance ourselves and take a break from certain people because of the way they choose to live life or maybe because they don't honor or respect who we are when differences of opinions come up. But sometimes, they will grow in their life experiences and when you cross paths with them once again, you will see that they have changed. I believe that people can change but really, it is truly up to them when and if they choose to change. 

I have walked away from a few people who are dear to me. I walked away from my best friend because of the way she chose to live her life in a self destructing way. I walked away from my soulmate because of the careless and reckless way he was treating life. I walked away from my big brothers because they both had failed to honor their words. But don't get me wrong, I didn't just up and leave the moment things got rough, no. I stuck around, I stayed by their side and did all I could to make them see what they were doing wrong. Then again, a person can only do so much. There is only so much advice you can offer and let's face it, you can't be holding someone's hand forever. At some point, they would have to learn to walk on their own and you would need to let go of their hand. And that's what I did. I let go and I walked away.

Having said that, I am not one to hold a grudge if someone reaches out and tries to make amends. There is always room for forgiveness in my heart but when the wound is red and raw, some space apart is what I need. Someday, who knows, I may find that I'm ready and they are ready for us to be in each other's lives again. When that day comes, I will tread very carefully. If I see that they have changed in a positive way, then I have no problem in letting them in and building a new relationship with them based on the growth and not the past. But if they haven't changed, then I will let go once again. I'm a reasonable person and the people whom I've walked away from, know this for a fact. I will not turn my back on them if they are genuine about keeping things real with me because I believe that everyone deserves a chance to own their wrongs and make things right.