Category : Diary/Journal

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(My Struggle with those types of friends)
 How do you know when your friend is your friend? How do you know they'll have your back and help you walkthrough difficulties? How do you know if they use you or relate to you? Just how much should you know if they ditched you? It's not a question. It's your thought. If they were shallow what would you do? If they show no remorse what would you do? If you know how to ask yourself that question how are you going to know? Just think about that one friend you'd hate but then you don't. That one friend that gets on your nerves but then doesn't. That one friend that does things that you don't like but then later on doesn't. That one friend you can't help but forgive them and be friends with a little while longer. That whole circulation is just wrong. That can occur when we can't say something or when we can but just hold back. That one minute you're like 'I can't be friends with this person anymore' and you give them the silent treatment for a few days. You try to make them jealous, but they got others. How would they know you're against them? Those type of friends that don't realize that type of behavior from you couldn't be worthy of your friendship. And it doesn't always have to do with using you. They are fake but remember you are real. And there are sometimes realistic moments. Such as knowing that you don't have any other specific type of friend you'd feel comfortable with talking to.(Feelings I get) Don't take this the wrong way. It's not like you're bad at social skills it's because you wanted to be alone because your friends who you thought were your friends decided to not give you their attention anymore. Then because of that you look around. Your so called friends hanging out with others. Didn't even look at you to see if you were joining the chat. That's the part that makes you feel lonely. It mostly wasn't to make you cry, angry, and hate. Then you now think it was you who was wrong about them. All I want to say is you're not wrong. Don't blame yourself and join that fake. You are right because of your uncomfortableness. It was that you thought a fake was your friend. It's not too late to find someone who will truly understand you....