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*part 6 of "Reina Leona" story*

"I'm having another one of those days where it feels like you're living inside my head. Your presence is felt so strongly, it's like as if you're breathing inside me. This energy that I get from that feeling pumps me up to the highest of high that at times I feel I can almost touch the sky. And then a gust of wind blows and throws me off balance when I look around and see all that is there to see."

Silence.

"You scare me. You have this unexplainable power to get me to expose myself fully to you, which leaves me feeling vulnerable at times. At the same time, you also have the ability to fuel my strength that at times I feel I'm unstoppable. My struggle today is.... how do I balance the two? How do I  be both strong and soft with you?"

.... and he replied, "Easy. Let your guard down."

I had this conversation with him quite sometime ago. I was having one of my 'episodes' and without thinking, I blurted out. Those were supposed to be private thoughts - my private thoughts. But I don't know why, for some reason, my brain lost all sense of logic and betrayed me with the outburst. Déjà vu crept in next. Crap! Only this time, I didn't run and hide. This time, I lay it all on the table. This is my voice. This is my mind. This is my story. This is my vision. This is me. And I'm owning it.

The situation is very simple. I want him to really get to know me. At the sane time, I'm hoping he'll allow me to really get to know him too. Not the public figure him, but the real person underneath all that glamour and glitz. That's the person I'm interested in. Why? Because a voice inside me tells me that this is no coincidence. There is a deep connection between us that surpasses any kind of label there is out there. It's a deep connection of the mind, body, heart, and Soul. And that inner voice of mine? Well, it's rarely ever wrong.

I ran away once, but only to look for answers. That was Stage One, done and completed. Now I'm moving onto Stage Two. I'm treading very slowly and carefully as I don't want to mess this up. This is way too important to me. I have to complete this stage and Ace it for this is the most crucial part of our journey together.

Somewhere in the conversation we had, I asked him, "Why do I trust you so much? I mean, I'm still trying to understand it."

And he replied, "It is because deep down inside you know that I'm not here to hurt you, but I'm here to accentuate your personality and your mind."

He does bring out the best in me. And the amazing thing is, deep down inside I do believe him when he said he's not here to hurt me.