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* part 5 of "Reina Leona" story *


My Love,
I have always prided myself for being the girl whose not 'affected' by love or romance or any of that mushy stuff. Matters of the heart was never in the equation for me. It was always "love 'em and leave 'em" situation. If the sex was good, I would stick around slightly longer but most of the time they were brief and short.
     
Then you came along and everything changed. I found myself affected by anything and everything You. It was something new to me and I didn't know how to handle it. When you were doing the 'Pearl Damansara' circuit, I used to find excuses to be in the neighborhood each time you were there. I used to sneak into 'Sanctuary', lose myself in the crowd, or simply stand by the door just so I could get a glimpse of you. It was that bad.
     
The whole time, I didn't know what the fuck was wrong with me. I just knew I had to be near you. Why? Who the hell knew?!
     
It was an ongoing debate inside me between my heart and my head. I was trying to identify my sudden changein character but I couldn't think straight when I'm near you. So, only one thing left to do - I split. I had to get out of your force field, that was all there was to it. You were a magnet, an irresistible energy, and me? I felt I was nothing but a helpless piece of scrap metal.
     
It was one of the hardest thing I've ever had to do but I knew I had to to it. I needed to dig deep and search for answers. I had to know for sure. It came down to   conclusion: if it was nothing, I won't see you again. But if it was real, I'll come back to look for you.
     
And now here I am, writing this letter to you. 
     
I am not expecting anything. I am in this with my eyes wide open so I know the drill. I just needed to let you know what's going on with me.

With much love,
Leona