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What I Was Isn't Who I Am

I write to speak my mind,
Its just easier for me to let out my emotions when I rhyme,I speak of truth, and try to hold nothing in,& write what I'm feeling, so let me begin, lately been Constantly feeling unloved,and lost,& I really wouldn't mind to die like most, I've been rejected so much that it burns, So many lies and multiple hurts,
cheated by many women and men ,
played by many people on different occasions, snitched out by many friends,
Taken for granted for no reason,  used only for my pussy and  money, treated like sh*t by many,robbed and stolen from so many times,
Played like a fool believing everybody's lies,
called ugly by many known & unknown
Made fun of plenty of times by even my own,
Had my life almost taken from me,
Had people jump me for keeping it a hundred daily, been beaten  and left on the side of the road to die,I've put alot of thought into suicide,stabbed  and choked by my ex wife,
Had my miracle son taken from my life,
abused verbally & sexually while young,
homeless & at times the s*it wasnt fun,
left for another  women more than once,
Threatend to be shot at way to much,
gone days with out food and water,  drowned by my own brother,
I've made  many many mistakes, 
But that's only icing on a cake,
Anyone can point out my wrongs,
Now let me show you what real sh*t I have done and why I'm still moving on,
I'm smart as hell, I'm my own teacher, 
I'm a great friend, I'm a amazing listener,
When I love someone, I love them with everything I got,
I have respect for everyone, until you give me a reason not,
I'm a person of my word and that means everything, 
I'm loyal & I don't fu*k around cheating it's just not my thing,
Ive worked my a*s off in my life, &
always strive to be the best & that's what keeps me alive, 
Taught myself morals and always use them
learned that if you want something only you can get it,
protected my Loved ones no matter what,
I was born with a voice so I intend to use it if I must, 
I set goals and have my own dreams, & each day being alive is truly a blessing for me,
We all make decisions we end up regretting as we go,
But we learn from our faults teaching ourselves it's okay to admit we don't always know,
I've done a lot and s*it the list can wrap around the equator, 
But I've always done good and that list stretches further just remember,
It's okay to make mistakes,
Just catch them before it's to late,We don't live in our past so don't dwell on it a lot.

Your Past doesn't define your future so give it all you got!