Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : miscellaneous

I found my soulmate, just to realize we're too much alike. We're both broken in different ways, that have left us with the same damages. We are both similar but different. That is the flaw of it. We can only feel whole together, but we will only be together for a short time. It seems we grow separate, just to come back to each other. He was used to playing with girls hearts, used to use them for their bodies. He couldn't bring himself to consider using me for a minute. Instead he was sweet. He showed me love when I asked for lust, and he took care of me. I was broken and confused, I've never felt anything like this. When we connect I feel invincible. I wanted to feel his touch, I wanted him to caress my body; he didn't. Instead he held me tight, knowing when the light reached our eyes I'd have to go. He didn't wanna let go, but he cared so much he let me leave. He was a mess; he wanted the best for me, even if that meant not having me. He healed part of me. He had her, he used her. I couldn't believe this was happening, he touched her the way I wanted him to feel me. I wasn't mad, I couldn't be he didn't need to explain cause I understood. I understood he didn't wanna hurt me, he loves me more than he wanted to. This same love which drove him away from me. Addiction is a disease, it makes you crave what you desire, to numb pain for some and to feel something for others. You're my addiction, you're my only remedy. I will wait for the day you come back, to breath you in and feel whole once again.



P.s excuse all the horrible grammar