Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

I lost you today. As if you were my car keys or something. For the next couple of days, weeks, years even everyone will be saying sorry for your loss. But what they dont realize, or maybe what they dont see is that I didnt lose you. You were taken from me. I know everyone has their time, that we all have to leave this place at one point or another. But I still needed you. I wasnt ready for you to leave. There was still so much I needed you to show me. To yell at me for. I needed you to listen to me complain about my kids, or teach me that a little salt goes a long way. I needed you for more things than I should. 
Was it a surprise to me that you left. No. I knew in my gut, that you didnt have alot of time left. That even the time you did have left wouldnt matter to you because you didnt recognize who I was. It was me. I was there. I cried with you. I laughed with you. But I in your mind wasnt there. Im really sorry for that. I guess that would be the worst part for me. Forgetting my baby. Forgetting the countless days I had spent with her. All the laughs and love. Its a shame. Because those were some pretty great memories. I promise to sing to her. Like you did me. And hold her hand when she is scared. Like you did me. I will protect her, and always make sure she grows into a warrior. Just like you did me.