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I would love to have a job just plop in my lap, but none are forthcoming. It’s frustrating.

I do measure my success by that. I want to be motivated, but it’s disheartening to have that happen, or rather not happen for me. I still want the place for now, then the ideal home. I still envision my old place in Houston for the for now place.

It was circular and went from room to room around the center wall. It had everything I could need. The carpeting was cream. The walls were white. I liked that it was carpeted because it was comfy for me and my cat. Though I wasn’t inwardly comfy there for my own disturbed reasons (I had shit to resolve), I was physically comfy there. I recommend that kind of comfort to anyone. It at least makes it easier to work on oneself and feel safe whilst doing so.

My favorite color is blue, so I’d have a blue theme in my room. Not too heavy though. It’s not like I’d have blue walls and a blue floor and every furniture item blue. More like the sheets or the covers would be blue. Just enough to calm me down and make me happy when I look at it. I wouldn’t have a desk in my bedroom since it would be distracting from sleep. I agree with the keep work and sleep separate in the home theory. It’s too easy to think of something and delay sleep with the excuse in one’s mind of being efficient. You go and you tell yourself, “Just this one last thing that’s bugging me, and then it won’t anymore.” but what your mind is thinking is, “Okay, I’m up, I’m getting things done, so why not get more done!” and so it keeps you thinking of more things to “be efficient” at. All this to get things out of the way so you can sleep and by the time you turn around it’s morning and you’ve wasted an entire night doing something you could’ve saved for during the day.

This gets me onto nighttime routines. I know it seems silly, the whole wash your face then brush your teeth and don’t have any TV or laptop stimulation an hour before bedtime, but it’s true. Light makes your mind think you’re supposed to be awake, and so your mind will force you to remain awake, then you’ll become sleepy, but oddly awake and alert all at the same time, bug-eyed in other words. Other than a night light, you really shouldn’t have lights on as you fall asleep. I know it’s more comforting, what with the tales of the boogeyman as we grow up, then the reality of burglars and murderers and kidnappers and rapists breaking in once we are adults; but it’s still best to just trust our locks at night rather than leave our brains (through our eyes) too stimulated to let us sleep.

Back to the ideal home décor. I’d have dark brown for my dresser and closet if I had a separate closet. Sometimes a house or apartment comes with built-in closets, sometimes it doesn’t. I’d have just a regular dresser, nothing too fancy. I like simplicity. I’d want my bedroom to have a window. It wouldn’t have a window seat since I don’t like to have too many people visit in my bedroom. I like the living room and dining room for that. Whatever kitchen I had, it would have a bar facing out from the kitchen for breakfast and lunch and informal dinners. Either that, or I’d just eat in the living room watching TV if it’s just me and my cat. I’d still have a pleasant dining room for guests and more formal dining.

I’d like a big or at least medium-sized kitchen to do all my cooking. I have a love of cooking. No formalized recipes, just more from the joy of cooking and the love of knowing I might serve it to people I love. Mine is informal down-home style cooking. I learned what I learned from my mother as a child, and later on from other sources. I once saw a man make fresh guacamole at the table, and since he had all the ingredients, it was easy to tell what to put in. I adapted some new recipes from ones I saw this cook of my father’s use. She was Indonesian. I learned some stuff with sesame oil and sriracha sauce. It was good. I even made it a few times for myself and my friend.

I want the dining table to be of dark brown wood as well. Dark brown wood goes with more in a home. Even if you move, you can move it with you and if you decide on a new color scheme, it could still work with it. I’d like that color in a bed frame as well, one with a headboard. Doesn’t have to be for sexual activity; it can also be just for comfort and head safety.

A white kitchen would go with most places, so I think I’d like that the best. Whatever barstools would have to have cushioning and backs so they’re comfortable. These aren’t barstools one would get up from after picking up a drink, but ones one would sit on for a meal, or to work on something.

I’d want a really comfy sofa or couch for the living room, maybe some other side chairs, but those would also be comfy ones rather than just dining/desk chairs. I’d have them all facing a fireplace with a mantle to separate the TV from the fireplace. I might have to have the TV next to the fireplace, or just have the TV at a different angle (along a different wall) than the fireplace. One of those living rooms that faces two sides of the room itself. The coffee table would be tall enough to reach anyone sitting and dark brown wood as well. I think the couch would be cream, and the chairs would match it.

I would love to have bookcases in the living area, or in the office. I’d want the office walls to be green. It’s a pensive color. I’ve heard it actually lends itself to thought. I’d want just a desk printer, black and simple enough and yet multi-use (printer, copier, scanner) in case I needed all those uses. You never know what kind of job you’ll have that necessitates those functions. Would probably need a shredder too. I don’t want mountains of files and papers, just to keep the ones that really mean something, or that are still needed. I’d want a rolling chair in case I needed to move around in it, though it wouldn’t have to be. If it were stationary, it would be of wood and have arms with padding on them, and have cushioning on the sit spot and the back. The back would be to my height. Still would be best to have it dark brown wood to go with anything, but I’d really like it to be red, a sort of auburn. The cushioning could turquoise, as a nice contrast with the red. The desk could be a matching red, big enough with drawers to fit whatever I needed. I’d even like a little top drawer to fit my laptop in when I’m not using it, that way it’s not out and visible and tempting me to use it.

I’d want two bathrooms, one guest and one master. I’d want one bedroom, though I’d be okay with a guest bedroom in case a friend slept over. The bed in there could be queen-sized, like mine would be. The color scheme in that room could be autumnal, with reds and nicer oranges and browns and golds. It would have the desk in there only for the guest’s convenience since I wouldn’t want to have to share my office. It would have a built-in closet with a dresser, also dark brown wood. It would be comfy and spacious enough to fit everything, and close enough to the guest bathroom. It would have a window and the desk could face out to the window. The dresser would be across from the bed, with a mirror.

The quest bathroom would have its own linen closet. I’d like the color scheme in there to be white, cream, and brown (cloudy mocha). The bathmat could be the cloudy mocha and the towels could one set cream, the other set the cloudy mocha. There’d be a toilet bathmat as well, also cloudy mocha. The cream towels would be the kind of cream that would go with the cloudy mocha.

I’d have the same in my bathroom, though with the addition of a litter box and accessories. I might want a claw-foot bathtub that’s big enough to be really luxurious and comfy. Separate shower, of course. It would be brown tile, to go with the cloudy mocha brown towels.

My ideal job would be something where I could be creative. I love to write. I’d rather be an author, or at least a co-author. I feel like I could be a part of a team that comes up with ideas, or that they’d already be in place and I’d join them and work off of what they already have. I’d enjoy that. I think in the meantime I’d still write my own stories. I enjoy it when my characters take me on an adventure, when they have a life of their own, and I think others will enjoy the ride too.