Category : Stories

Sub Category : Drama

I am beyond tired of being nice.
You can give your all or nothing to people but it still isn't enough.
Everytime im at the brink of being happy with something or someone something or someone comes along and snatches it away. It's like I can never win . I am so over it . I mean what else can I do but to give up on certain situations right? I mean that is a solution to my problems. I'm always being snarled at always being judged. Always being left out or not thought about. I'm just not enough for anything or anyone. Never have been but only for a short time. I mean I'm practically engaged but Its not always sunshine. Who am I kidding it's never really sunshine unless something is in the moment. I don't think Im ever gonna get married. I have two children (boys). They don't really call me mom anymore probably because I've let them down a couple of time I would call myself a good parent. I'm still learning as I go . Im definitely not perfect but one day I hope I can make a permanent smile on their little faces. I'm dealing with depression, bipolar and anxiety so my world isn't always bright. It's a mental issue for some who doesn't know what it is. It can affect you in so many ways off and on. You're smiling one minute and crying the next. Im constantly worrying constantly feeling worthless.  I pray every day and night. I sacrifice for my kids I've always did. I'm actually a good hearted person but noone sees it. Im hoping on a wishing star for a happy ending before it's to late.