Category : Stories

Sub Category : YoungAdult

He was deeper than I was, he knew all the spots that hurt. If I left myself open, he'd show me where it hurt the worst.
 I trusted an individual w/my thoughts and things I've been through. Things I hated even thinking about just for him to laugh, just for him to throw it in my face whenever he felt like he needed to. I let him control a space in my mind, he sat there day and night until one night my subconscious forced him to the side.
 There was no more "me and him" there was no more thinking about "us". I was smoking a cigarette today trying to figure out what his name was. I'm just being melodramatic, of course I remember his name. But there's no meaning to it I don't think I'd recognize a face to the name because that's how fast you drained, so quickly. 
Also - because I met someone, yea I met someone else. 
No rush, I already told myself I'm out for the count, no feelings will be given out, all I gotta do is think of you and I won't feel regretful for possibly missing out. 
That made me stop and listen.
      See it wasn't my mind that made that decision, it was my heart this time and I've been lead that way before. The windows are locked down, there's no way in - there's not even a door. I won't listen to it like I did before, but my mind has come unstuck. It wasn't that way with you, of course. But his mind is showing me mine, and I'm low-key coming back for more.
 You would think I wouldn't want to do this shit again but not every man is the same. So when I give him that chance, I promise I won't be cursing your name. The Queen in me will be out and fierce, she will be proud because her King beside her seen her worth and potential, reminding her of what love is really all about. 

- B.