Category : Poems

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All this time, all my life I have gone unknown to everyone I know including myself. Always chasing a fantasy or dream of who I should be. Living life as if I was someone else..not myself no consequences to be paid. Daily struggles and fights at night, to find the piece of me that's missing in the light ....always smile,use your manners..never ever go to bed mad ..
And love yourself like there is no tomorrow...these are the stuff we are taught...1.how is a girl to smile when all I feel is sadness from deep inside Dont know where it ends or even begins..2.manners you say..like the ones I fake everyday..3.never go to bed mad, how can I go to bed glad? Most of the time I wish I was dead...4.love myself you say..how can you love someone you know nothing about only cold hatred intense remorse and guilt feelings all bundled up and tucked away in these crazy frightening thoughts of mine? In a week I'll be 37 in a week nothing would have changed in a week my life is still a mistake ...in a week I'll remain trapped in my own self mutilation hatred of everything I know about me which is unknown!