Category : Books-Fiction

Sub Category : Romance

Prologue 




" Austin? Do you love me?" Suki asked me looking down at her black shiny boots. I raised my eyebrow at her weird question. "of course, I love you Suki you're my best friend since birth! I love you to the ends of the earth." I said to her with a smile, but that was seventeen years ago; when I was ten and I didn't know what she meant until now. Maybe i was too stupid to realize that the number one girl that was made for me was in front of my face the whole time. I never thought she would ever love me. Though I never knew I would ever fall in love with her until I saw her kiss one of my mates; it broke my heart to see Suki fall in love with someone else. She is a storm, but she's the perfect storm in my heart.










Chapter one 


Brianna looked at me like I wasn't part of this world. "Austin, you changed a lot since we’ve been dating. You never call me, never go on—" I cut her off. She was pissing me off. "Bullshit! Brianna I always called you, but you never picked up. You know why? Cause you're always talking to that guy! Also when I made a date for us to go out, you said you had fucking plans!" I started to yell at Brianna. I never yell at a woman,but if I ever did then you damn well knew I was pissed. I sigh and stuck my hands in my pockets. "Brianna, I'm sorry for yelling at you, but I ain't the one who has changed it's you." I said looking at her dead in her eyes. "what!" She screamed. At this point everyone was staring at us. I quickly glanced around at the many pair of eyes on Brianna and me. Well fuck,that's just great Suki will think I'm the biggest asshole at south high. “You're such a dick!" Brianna yelled at me crossing her arms against her chest. "I'm a dick? Hmm so you're saying that me treating you like your a queen is being a dick?" I paused for a little bit to find my words. "how am I a dick when I treat you perfect and you treat me like I'm dirt on your shoes!" I started to raise my voice again, I pointed a finger in her face. "I thought you were the one who I..." I cut myself off and shook my head turning my back on her. "Matter fact that shit doesn't matter to you cause I'm out of your life." I growled walking away from her and right out of the school. I got to my truck opening the door. before I closed it I started to cry. Yes the captain of the football team is balling his eyes out. I loved brianna she was perfect, but when one of my boys told me she was cheating on me with another guy. I honestly lost it and I kinda punched the guy in the face and broke his nose. I tried to apologize to the guy, but he didn't accept it then tried to punch me in the face. I grabbed his fist and I broke his wrist. There was a knock on my window. "Austin?" Said a sweet calming voice. I knew it was Suki by her voice. Suki and I had been friends since we were just babies. "Yeah Suki?" I asked trying not to sound like I was crying. "I was just making sure you're okay because I saw what happened between you and Brianna." She said sweetly and I opened the door to my truck to get out. "I'm alright Suki." I lied. Why do I feel so bad about lying to her? I leaned against the truck. I heard her shift her feet against the pavement, "Austin, i’ve known you since we were babies. I pretty much know you like the back of my hand, so don't lie to me mister." She said using her famous motherly tone. I sighed looking into her eyes and said, "why do you care so much? You just saw me being the biggest asshole in front of the whole school." I could hear my voice crack a little, I could feel the tears in my eyes like an ocean ripping away parts of the beach piece by piece. I looked at Suki's face trying to read her emotions, but I couldn't see anything not even in her eye’s. She became silent and stared at me for a minute. "I care because you are my best friend since birth Austin, I even use to like you for a long time, but I realized you weren't gonna like me like that. So I moved on from that fact" she paused and looked at the ground, "I just don't want to see you getting hurt anymore because it hurts me too. I can't just stand here like a bump on a log watching you get hurt by these sluts and whores that don't give a flying fuck about you." Suki started to cry running her fingers threw her blue hair. I didn't know what to do, but my first reaction was to pull her into my arms and hold her. She buried her face into my chest and wrapped her arms around my lower back. I started to rub her back trying to calm her down a little; she cried softly into my chest which muffled her weeps. "Shh, Suki it's okay. I'm alright, everything is going to be okay I promise." I say trying to ease her nerves a bit. I hate seeing her cry, more the fact I'm usually the cause of it; I always hated myself for being the reason. Yeah, yeah I know, I should've known she was the one for me, but I didn't. But right in this moment, realization had to hit me in the face, because I had feelings for my best friend. Though the question is do I love her?  I feel her relax against my chest and sigh. "you are a pain in my ass Austin, I hope you know that." Suki mumbled pulling away breaking away from my hug. "yes I know, but I am your pain in the ass." She giggles and gives me a soft push. "we should head towards class cause we're kinda late." She says and starts walking quickly towards the school, I follow quietly behind her lost in my own thoughts. I got Suki back to her classroom, I tried to give her a hug goodbye; I sadly get rejected for some odd reason. I quickly take a look into the classroom and see my teammate Cody narrowing his ice green eyes at me, making me raise my eyebrows out of confusion. I get to my classroom about thirty minutes, I knock on the door and seconds later after my knock, I’m face to face with my math teacher Mr.Herbert. "Mr.Smitty, will you tell the class why you are late today?" He looks at me and narrows his eyes. Is everyone narrowing their eyes at me? Damn. "Someone told me to go to hell, so I got confused and started to look around. Then I remembered I have your class today and now I'm here." I told him and the class with a big goofy smirk across my face. Mr. Herbert sighed and shook his head, "Go take a seat Mr.Smitty." He mumbles closing the door behind me as I take a seat by my mate cooper. "You think you're funny and cute Smitty?" Mr.Herbert asked glancing at me then back at the board. "no sir, I'm hilarious and adorable, plus all the ladies love me Frank." I said calling him by his first name; Cooper and I fist bumped and laughed. Cooper is my teammate in football. He's the left field player and a damn good one at that! Frank is the math teacher,but he kinda looks like a writing teacher I guess he got stuck with the nerds his high school year. He's hates me for always calling him by his first name, but I get away with it cause I'm passing his class with all A's beating everyone except Copper and Alexis the smart girl. Everyone else is failing badly. Yeah I know what you're thinking, a football player making all A's ain't that crazy? Well I don't want to get into college because of football; I want to be accept for my brains too. I leaned back into my chair, closing my eyes and listening to Frank talk about math. For instants; how one step equations that whatever you do to one side you must do to the other and how you must use the "inverse" operation (do the opposite). We do these math equations with really big problems cause we're juniors, plus I am in all Pre-Ap classes and some college class as well. "Austin?" I heard a small soft voice behind me, I turned around looking at Beca. She’s pretty i’ll give her that, but I would never date her. Big reason is she's known to sleep around with other people. "Can you help me out with this problem I'm having?" She said in a flirty way sliding her hand down my arm. I glanced over to see Alexis mouthing, "No." I smiled with a slight nod of my head, I looked back at Beca. "I can't help you with your problems Becca that's what therapy is for and I ain't a therapist not trying to be one." I told her then turning back around in my seat. I chuckled hearing a small gasp of shock cause she finally process it in her head. "The last fifteen minutes of class I want y'all to get with a partner, but choose wisely these people you pick will be your partner for the rest of the school year." Frank said glancing at me and cooper; my eyebrow went up at him. I got up from my desk feeling all the eyes of the students on me as I walk the path of judgement, but I honestly didn't give a damn. "hey Alexis, may i be so kind as to have you as my math partner for the rest of the school year?" I asked her doing a little bow at the end. I heard her giggle softly, "I would love to be your partner."  Alexis says and pats the seat next to her and I sit down. No text from Suki. I sigh putting my phone in my pocket. "Thank you for telling me not to help becca with her math problem." I smiled and glanced over to see Becca with cooper. Really cooper.. don't get a disease. "you're welcome, Austin I would do anything for Suki's best friend. I heard her boyfriend doesn't like you for some reason." She said not looking up from her book. Boyfriend? Hate me? What? "She has a boyfriend? Who? And why doesn't he like me?" I bombed her with questions and I panicked a little. "umm, yeah for about like five months her and Cody been dating. I don't know why he hates you though." Alexis told me finally looking up at me. "Cody black? My teammate in football? The right field player?" I questioned her raising my eyebrow. She nodded putting her stuff in her pack and getting up; I sighed out of anger and defeat. What's the point now? Why didn't she tell me.. that hurts a lot actually. "yeah sorry I probably should—." The bell cut her off as she tried to finished her sentence, but I honestly didn't care right now I wanted to get out of there. I told her bye and left the classroom when I heard Chris shout from down the hallway. "hey team captain ain't you ready for the home game this Friday? I heard it's going to be big as hell!" He shouted and patted me on the back. "um duh of course i am i'm the big puzzle piece to the team, team captain plus quarterback." I told him with a shrug not even looking at Chris. "you better fucking dress fast enough today or coach gonna make us all do laps and bleachers, I rather do weights today little cooper." I said now looking at him. "okay okay, I will I promise." Chris said holding up his hands in surrender and runs towards his class. Chris is the little brother of David Cooper, but everyone calls David, Cooper. I honestly don't know why, it all started freshmen year.They only time we call chris Cooper is when he pisses us off or just to bug him; we say little Cooper to Chris because he hates it. I was walking to my second periods class and that's English 4 with Mrs. McBride. All of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in my chest like my heart had been stabbed or ripped right out of my chest without a warning and I honestly couldn't breathe. My heart was breaking because ten feet away from me was Suki and Cody kissing. I love Suki Davis Foster. I gathered up my broken heart and enter my classroom.












Chapter two 


I love Suki Davis Foster. I love Suki Davis Foster. I love Suki Davis Foster. "Stop!" I shouted out loud thinking I shouted mentally in my head, realization hit me in the face like a punch when I felt everyone's eyes on me and my face felt like a hot sunny day in the desert from embarrassment. "Smitty? You alright dearie?" Mrs.McBride asked with a worried look upon her face. I sigh and slightly nodded in replay. " yes ma'am I'm just having a bad day... sorry." I told her giving Mrs.McBride some ease as I rested my head on my arms. I heard the door of the classroom close shut, I felt everyone's eyes leave me. Thank god.  I looked up to see Suki's face red as strawberries. That's a really pretty color on her, wish I could...damnit stop it Austin. God you're a lovesick fool. "Now Foster , why are you late again this week?" Mrs. McBride asked her and Suki started to shift her feet from being nervous. "  I was walking Cody Barker to class... he had to much in his hands." She said looking down at her feet,I could slightly feel her eyes land on me, but I look away from her glance. Too much in his hands? More like to much on his lips. Suki walked over to her seat next to mine when the teacher told her to take her seat. Mrs. McBride started  to teach us about personal pronouns of nominative, objective, and possessive. It's awesome really, but it's like you already know this cause why shouldn't you not know about it if you're in Pre-Ap English 4? "Austin, are you okay?" Suki leaned over to whisper to me. I glanced over to her and sigh holding back all my emotions. " I'm peachy, now let me listen to this lesson. Maybe you should pay attention too. Hmm?" I said with a dead expression on my face, I could see out of my left eye she flinched at my tone. Honestly don't get me wrong I hate hurting her, but right now I don't care. She hurt me by not telling me she was dating Cody my teammate! Suki hurt me more than any girl I ever dated in my life. Wait... is this what she  felt when I didn't notice her feelings for me? I wrote in my English notebook while listening to McBride teach that class,writing everything she said and I mean everything. I'm that good taking notes just by listening to teacher talk and not look up every second. " oh dearie me! Look at the time! It's eleven - fifteen; time for you kiddos go to lunch or to your next class.  If y'all are tardy because of me tell your teachers to call me." McBride said waving her hands goodbye to us. I quickly grab my bag, slinging it over my shoulder and headed out the door. I was about eleven feet away from the door when I was stopped dead in my tracks by no other person than Cody barker. "Look Austin, I don't want any trouble with you and all cause y'know you're the captain of the football team and probably get me off the—" I cut him off getting annoyed, " Get to the point Barker." I said in a low tone. "Okay okay. Just stay away from my girl Austin. Like I don't know y'all history, but I have a bad feeling about you all up on Suki." He said getting closer to me by taking a big step with a big smirk on his face. Cody you are stupid as a squirrel. I looked down at him raising my left eyebrow at him. "Cody, you can't beat my ass even if you try. Anyways I won't stay way from Suki cause she's my best friend so watch it Barker." I said in a very low and scary voice to see him flinch at my tone. I stepped around him as I glared looking in his eyes then heading towards my truck. I stood taller than all the guys in football, plus bigger in muscle size. I heard the click and clacking of high heels coming up behind me. Great , Jesus not this again. I stopped in my tracks and turned on the back of my heal to see Brianna walking up towards me "Austin! Austin baby!" A high pitch voice called my name. "Aren't you sitting with me and the girls at lunch?" Brianna asked leaning up on me putting her hands on my chest like she use to do. "No Brianna, we broke up remember? Or did that tiny blond head of yours didn't process that?" I looked at her for a second or more before turning my back on her and started walking towards the double doors. But that didn't last long cause she won't get it threw her bloody head. "But Austin I -" I cut her off quickly than a hyper active kid on sweets. "Look Brianna I told you twice don't make it be a be fourth time I tell you this we have broken up so get off my ass,damn. We both know you just don't want me to be in love with someone else." I said calmly,but in my famous low tone of voice. Which scares people slightly maybe more. I quickly bolted for the doors. I got into my truck threw my bag in the back then my iPhone started to ring  and I groaned turning back, digging into my bag to get to my phone. I didn't bother to check the caller ID cause I alright know who it was. " Yes, Cooper you can come get lunch with me." I said to him in an annoying way; I looked up and saw Suki arguing with Cody. " You always call me at this time right before I leave the parking lot and head to whataburger." I paused listening to Cooper talk, but my attention was more on Barker and Suki. " Yeah, I'm still here. Yes you can come with me and get lunch, but hurry your ass up mate." I said getting out my truck and hanged up my phone, putting it in my back pocket. I notice Suki walking way from Cody.  I'm going to beat Cody's ass. I ran over to Suki with a smile on my face. " Hey Blue Bird, wanna come with me and Cooper to Whataburger?"  I asked her and I was blushing slightly. Blue bird is her nickname ever since she dyed her blue when she was ten for her birthday it's so beautiful. Suki looked up at me and smiled. " You always show up when I'm in need, don't you?" She asked hugging me quickly. " Just like Batman, The Flash or even The Green Arrow." I said grabbing her hand and walking to my truck. What am I  feeling? Like my stomach just flipped over and a spark just shot up my arms. I open the other side of my truck so she could get in; Suki sat in the middle. Cooper ran over to my truck like a monster chasing his prey and jumped into his seat in the truck. Man can that boy run! I walked over to the driver side and got in. "About time you got here David." I smiled closing my door and starting the truck up. "Eww, don't call me by my first name that's weird." Cooper whined at me and I heard Suki's beautiful laugh as she laughed at Cooper. It sounded like a beautiful song  in my ears. I laugh shaking my head and pulled out of the school's parking lot; heading towards the whataburger down from the school. "Whataburger here we come!" Cooper shouted on the top of his lungs with his head out of the window while pumping his fist in the air. I have a crazy best friend. How did I meet these people? Does Cooper think he's in the breakfast club. Burst of laughter comes out of Suki's mouth, I quickly glanced at her. " Why are you laughing Iggy?" Cooper asked looking at her stopping what he was doing. I don't know why Cooper calls Suki, Iggy maybe it's cause she looks like a pop star. Suki calms down from her outburst of laughter. "Because Cooper you said come and my dirty mind got the better than me." She said and looked at Cooper giving him her innocent smile. "You nasty!" Cooper shouted as I pulled up into that parking lot of whataburger and parked my truck. They got out and ran towards the door. Those two are like a bunch of hungry bears. " Okay children calm yourself and let's go into the restaurant like we have manners please and thank you." I said raising my eyebrows at them and they gave me a big huff. My phone started to ring and barker's name popped up; I ignored it. I followed Suki to a booth and sat down next to her. " what was the argument about between you and barker?" I blurted out and I saw her eyes go big. "You saw that?" She asked looking at me and I just nodded my head. "Well, he told me to stay away from you cause you're bad for me, but I told him just shut up about it... then he said that I asked for this." Suki paused and she looked like she was going to cry. "But I don't know what he meant by that." She frowned and her head dropped. "Hey Blue bird, it's okay you're Batman is always here for you." I said lifting her head with my hand gently for her to look at me. Man her eyes are so beautiful. I wish I could tell her how I feel, but I think it's not the right time or what's best either. I heard her sweet cute giggle and her beautiful smile appeared among her face as she looks at me. I smiled back at her and my cheeks gave a little blush on them. " I got food!" Cooper said slightly loud as he quickly set down the tray and sat down in front of me and Suki. I grabbed Suki's food and mines, I handed her food to her. I looked up and see Cooper already shoving his cheeseburger down his throat. "Damn, Cooper I didn't know you could deep throat." I said with a devilish smirk as Cooper started to choke on his food and Suki spitted her soda out of her mouth from holding in her laughter. "What the fuck smitty! You know I'm fucking straight!" Cooper growls at me and I burst out of laughter. My phone started to ring and I groan. Can't I have a good time with my friends? I took it out of my back pocket and got up to answer it. I didn't bother to check caller ID. 


The phone call - 
Me- hello? 
Caller- hello Smitty, it's barker are you with Suki? 
Me- oh, hi barker what do you want? And yes she's with me and Cooper we are having lunch. Why? 
Caller- bring her to the school .
Me- are you ordering me to take her back to school when we already are going after we are done eating, barker. 
Caller- Yes, right now. If you don't I'll call her up and tell her your big crush on my girlfriend? 
Me- okay... okay please don't tell her I'll take her to school. 
Caller- *Laughs* you are Pathetic , I didn't know that was your weakness. Matter fact! I'll tell the whole high school you like Suki and you only broke up with Brianna cause of her if you don't stay away from Suki. 
Me- you were the one that—
Caller- No no Austin I'm the one is going to point fingers now get my girlfriend to the high school now or else. 
Me- okay... I'll do that too * hangs up* 

I put my phone back into my back pocket as I walk back to our table. " okay guys let get our table clean and take what we didn't eat back to the school." I told them with a fake smile on my face;I looked over at Suki and frown slightly. I'm sorry Suki, but I can't let you know that I have a crush on you maybe it's more than a crush because I feel like I love you, but I don't know what love is. I'm sorry so so sorry Suki that I will have to leave you without saying anything and you will hate me and I know  you will...I'm sorry.





Chapter three


    
God, can't I get any more stupid than what I just did? I just let Cody barker that worst football player on my team get to me by using my crush, on Suki against me? I am so fucking stupid! I can easily beat the fuck out of him.   I parked my truck in the front of the school in my normal parking spot. " Thanks for the lunch Austin, that was really sweet of you." Suki says as she grabs her stuff to get ready to get out of the truck and I smiled at her turning my truck off. I looked up to see barker go into the school and I frowned. She's going to hate me for ignoring her. I felt the guilt crawl up my back and stabbing my heart ever so slightly. " Yeah dude thanks for the grub." Cooper said as he climbs out of the truck and grabbing his bag out from the backseat, Suki followed close behind him and closed the door when she got out. I watch her disappear in the school building and I could imagine her running up to barker, hugging him like he was the air she breathes. I sit in my vehicle for a decent hour when I checked the the radio clock and it blinked twelve. I stumble out of the truck and grabbing my bag before I  slammed the door of the truck closed, slinging my bag over my shoulder and walked towards the school. I will not let barker bloody control me I'm stronger than him. I will not lose my best friends over this stupid deal, I rather get rejected by Suki not loving me like I love her than lose her completely. The doors of the school slammed open and I get dirty, scared looks by everyone, but right now I didn't really give two fucks. I walk up to Jimmy who I believe his barker's close friend. " Look, Jim don't lie to me if I ask you this question got it?" I paused looking at him giving Jimmy my death glare. I continue to ask the question before he could reply. " Where is Cody right now? I know he never shows up to football practice during third period." Jimmy started to bite his lip nervously like Suki use to do and there was when I realized this was the guy that Suki always hanged out back in middle school. Jimmy is Suki's GBF and I'm here getting into his face like he's barker's best friend. " he's with your ex... Brianna. I-In the sex room." He whispers looking down like he was guilty about it.  " Cody been using her, Austin. Ever since they got together. Barker doesn't love her and I tried to tell her, but he said if I ever tell her he'll get his friends to beat me." Jimmy said and it sound it like he was about to cry. "Homes, I'm sorry I came up to you like this... I just want to protect Suki, but thanks for telling me this I promise I'm gonna stop this." I told him and punched him softly on his shoulder, I turned around heading to the sex room. No our school doesn't really have a sex room, basically it's just a empty room that fuck boys like to use to fuck girls in. The guys here started calling it that when they notice it was unlocked and unused. No I ain't no fuck boy, I know how to be a gentlemen and not use girls for the game and ease their hormones. Some of the guys don't even use freaking condoms! Like come on, do you really want to be a baby daddy in high school? I stopped that the room and leaned against the door listening to any sound of sex or Brianna's annoying voice. "Cody when are you going to break up with her and be all mine?" The voice of a female that sound needy slips under the door. There's the annoying voice I do not miss. "Soon, babygirl I promise then we don't have to hide—." I cut off barker as make the door slam open and both of them shot up naked. I was shaking badly and trying my best not to beat the life out of barker. "Get your ass back to football before I tell coach that you been skipping since Monday!" I said in my low voice and out of the corner of my eye, brianna flinches. "You can't do that, I have the –." I cut him off again and smiled. "Watch me, and you don't have the upper hand," I paused, " I do." I quickly took out my phone and took a picture of them, the flash was on. Now it's time to tell Suki about this, she'll probably kill Brianna. I head towards the locker room for the football player, on my way there I notice Jimmy laying on the floor of the school gym. " Jimmy!" I shouted and ran over to him. "T-They Jumped m-me." He choked out barely keeping his eyes opened. Jimmy looked horrible, he had black eyes and his lips were bleeding. " who are they, Jim?"  I asked helping him out by wrapping my arm around his waist and throwing one of his arms around my neck. " A-Adam, Z-Zack, a-and D-Devon." Jimmy says softly and his eyes finally closed. " I'm talking you to the nurse and you will be okay,mate." I told his as we head to the nurse's offices. " I'm going to tell Suki about barker's cheating then I'm gonna find these dick head and kick their ass that did this to you." I said in my low voice. Barker is getting himself in a deep hole. After getting Jimmy to the nurse, I started to head to the football locker room. I spotted barker, his back facing me. Hope you find a better sport to play when you get kicked out of football barker. I walk over to coaches  Lucas office where he is all the team, before he yells at us to go workout in the gym. Yes our school had its own gym pretty cool huh? I knocked on the door before walking in, the coach's chair slowly turns around like you're in a spy movie. I think coach Lucas watches too much James Bond movies. "Ah, Austin I wasn't expecting to see you today. What bring you to my office?" He asked me as coach Lucas rest his head on his fist. I stayed quiet and just set my phone on his desk showing him the picture of barker and Brianna naked in the "Sex room". Coach's eyes whined as he looks at my phone. "Is that Cody barker and the head cheerleader?" He asked looking up at me then back at my phone. " yes sir it is." I told him and he handed my phone back. "Barker hasn't been to practice since Monday, he been messing around with that girl in that room nobody uses." I said as I put  my phone back in my back pocket. " I think he should be kicked off the team, because he never here for practice and he's gonna make us lose the game next Friday." I said leaning against the door of his office. Coach looks at me and stood up from his chair. "Son, I'll handle this and get barker settled and what not. Let the grown ups handle this, but thanks for telling me." Lucas said leaning against his chair, I nodded in my response to him before I left his office. Time to fine Suki and tell truth about everything. My phone started to ring and it was Suki on the caller ID. What did she want? Maybe I get tell her about barker and how I feel about her too.  


~ Phone call between Suki and Austin ~ 
Me- hey Suki? You okay? 
Suki - no no, I'm not... I-I'm crying please help me. 
Me- hey, breathe Suki. I'll be over at your house? 
Suki - yes, please come over. I need my flash. 
Me- okay Suki I'll be over right over. I'll see you soon. Love you Suki
Suki - I love you too Austin. 
~ end of phone call ~ 

The phone call ends and I started to head for my truck to go over to Suki's house. Did she find out about barker? Did something happen in her family? Okay okay I need to be calm before I freak out and end up freaking out Suki. I get into my truck and drive towards Suki's house to see what was wrong with her. Don't worry Suki, your flash is coming to save the day!




Chapter four 


 I was driving towards Suki's house when I notice her car at my house. What the hell? I parked my truck in front of my house, I get out and walked up to the door; opening the door with my key. I set my down my backpack at the door as I took my shoes off before I walked up the stairs to my room. Opening my bedroom door I saw Suki in my bed under my blankets. Dammit! I been waiting for this day, Christ this ain't the time Austin focus! "Suki are you okay? I thought we were meeting up at your house?" I asked walking up to my bed and sat on the opposite of her. She rolled over to face me, her eyes were red from crying. "We were going to, but I didn't want my parents knowing anything, yet." Suki said softly her voice was cracking a little bit. "Plus, my parents will disowned me for what I'm about to tell you." I looked at her with worry. "Why would they disown you blue?" I asked getting closer to her on the bed. I was getting worried and maybe a little bit scared. Suki looked at me dead in the eyes, they looked so sad and broken. " I'm pregnant and it's barker's child... but he doesn't know and he'll never know because Cody cheated on me with that bitch Briana!" She started to cry heavily, I quickly moved closer to her and pulled her into my chest. Suki wrapped her arms around me and cried into my chest. "My parents are going to kick me out and I will not have no place to go... I'll -" I cut her off by giving her a kiss on the lips. "Before you say anything about the kiss...Suki you can just tell your parents it's my baby. If they do kick you out, my mom wouldn't mind you staying and living with us." I said with a smile on my face. "You know my mom loves you... I love you." I said looking into her eyes. "Austin, why would you even say or think that? I'm pregnant..." she frowns and looked away from me. "My reason? Is because I love you and no not just my best friend kind of love more of my girlfriend kind of love." I told her," I finally realized that the one for me was in front of me this whole time, I found that out when I saw you kiss barker and it shattered my heart to pieces. " I grab her hands and hold them, she looked back at me. "I know this took forever for me to realize this and to do this, but Suki Davis Foster I love you and would you make me the happiest man in the world and be my girlfriend?" I asked her and I felt every bone in my body get nervous and getting ready to be rejected. Please say yes Suki I know it took me long time to realize this. Suki lean in and kissed my lips softly and passionately. "Yes I would love to be your girlfriend now and forever." She said pulling away from my lips. "Your mom going to be okay with me staying here?" Suki asked sounding worried, I moved a strand of her hair out of her face. "Baby girl, you don't need to worry about a thing. My mom will be perfectly fine. Now let's us go to your house so we can tell your parents that you are pregnant and that i am the father of the baby." I said and smiled at Suki masking her feel safe and happy. I will protect.   You Suki from my parents, your parents,and anyone. I will not have anybody hurting my baby girl. "Austin, wh do I keep having bad shit always happen to me?" Suki asked me as we waked out of the house to my truck. " well, let me put it this way; storms make trees take deeper roots." I told her while opening the door on her side. " what does that mean?" She frowned with a puzzled look upon her face. "It means that dark times can damage us so deeply that even though we're still physically here, we can't imagine a time  when we will feel fully recovered." I paused and glanced at Suki, we haven't left my house yet, "After the storms of our own life, we may wonder if our bodies, mind or soul will ever be the same again." I said and turns on the truck, slowly pulled out of my driveway. "Are you on something Austin?" She blurted out an i shook my head laughing."No, Suki I ain't on anything, remember? You told me to stop smoking weed and drinking. I haven't broke that promise and I'm not planning to either." I told her as i head towards the house. I moved my left hand over to her hands to chill and calm Suki's nervous a little. We final pulled up to her driveway her parents car are there so they were home. I looked over at Suki and squeezed her hand slightly. "You're ready to face the fire? I asked her and she nodded in a response. I hope everything goes to plan, I'm even nervous! I open the door for her and followed her in the house, i closed the door behind me." Mom? Dad? I'm home and we need to talk to you." She shouted getting her parents to come to us. Which that didn't happen. "Honey, we are in the kitchen." Suki's mom shouted back to her. "What do you mean 'we' Su?" Her father said not even looking up from his newspaper. I don't think Mr. Foster see me yet. "Hi, Mrs. and Mrs. Foster." I said walking into the kitchen, Suki let go of my hand before we walked into the kitchen . "Oh, Austin you've grown so big and tall." Mrs. Foster told me many me blush, Mr. Foster looked up took one glanced at me then went back to reading his newspaper.Pi se you've been working out, my boy." He said turning the page. " yes sir, still in a lot of sports."i told him with a smile; I glanced over at Suki seeing if she was going to tell them or a i still going to warm them up for the big fat news. Suki too my hand before speaking, "Mom, Dad,  I have something to tell you... please don't get mad." She said in slow voice and squeezed my hand a little. "What is it sweetheart?" Mrs. Foster said with a worried look on her face and Mr. Foster slowly put down his newspaper. I wonder if they have notice our hands yet. "I'm...pregnant.. and Austin is the daddy." Suki said with a little studder in her voice. I felt the air in the room get really hot and the death glare of her father's eyes on me. Mr. Foster stood up from his chair and her mother looked like she was about to cry. I don't know if her tears going to be happy or sad. "Austin get out of this house so we can talk to our daughter alone." Mr. Foster said in a very angry voice. I nodded and kissed the side of Suki's head before i walked outside and waited.  I was sitting on the ground leaning against my truck with my face in my hands. I heard the door open i stood up quickly, before knew who came out I stumbled backwards onto the hood of the truck. I didn't even know why was happening so my reflexes kicked in and I stopped someone's fist hitting my face again. "Dad stop! You're hurting him!" Suki screamed and i finally knew who hit me in my face, her dad. Fucking hell! I got fucking pissed, but I wasn't going to hurt her dad well not too much. "Suki get your bags and throw it in the truck and let's get the hell out of here." I told her while holding back her dad from getting another punch in me. What i do for love. I heard the truck door open and slam shut, that gave me the sign that Suki is safe. I pushed her dad to the ground and quickly getting into my truck, speeding off and out of their driveway and headed towards my house. "Austin? Is your face okay?" Suki asked with a worry tone in her voice."yes,sweetheart your father only hit me once." I told her with a smile on my face. Dame, her father can pack a punch. my jaw gonna hurt for a week and there's gonna be a bruise too.  I pulled up to my driveway and parked the car, my mom was home. "You get your bags out and I'll be right back to help." I told her and quickly exiting out of my truck and ran into my house leaving the door open. "Mom! I need to talk you!" I shouted looking in the kitchen for her. "I'm in the living room Austin!" My mom shouted back at me and i ran into the living room. "Mom, Suki  got kicked out of her house cause she pregnant can-" my mom cut me off. "Yes she can stay here, i know she's also your girlfriend." My mouth was opening in a 'O' shape. whaaaat? I'm so shocked at this like how in the world. "How did you know?" I asked looking at my mom stunned. " I am a mom, mothers know everything and see everything, plus her parents texted me as well." She said and i nodded; i turned around starting to head back to my truck to help Suki with her bags. "Oh Austin before you go," she paused and  i looked back at her. "Better take care of that cold and Suki, and don't leave them when it gets tough." My mom told me and i knew where this was leading to. My father. "Mom, I ain't gonna be like my father who left you to take care of me on your own, i will not put Suki threw what he did to you mom, i promise you that." I told her with a small smile on my face. I walked out the door and head toward my truck. "Let's get these bags up those stairs and into our bedroom." I said to Suki with a big smile on my face.
















Chapter five


I set suki’s bags down beside my bed and looked around. This weekend my room needs a makeover. I started to think about my room and suki, then i remembered my mom’s room and how big it is than my room. “Hey baby, where should i put my stuff at?” Suki asked me breaking my train of thought. “Anywhere love, doesn’t matter we’ll deal with unpacking later.” i told her with a smile as i turn around to look at her. She nods and set her bags next to the others ones. “ who wants pizza!” my mom yelled from downstairs. “We do!” we both shouted at the same time. “Okay i’ll call up pizza bro!” she yelled back.

~ I quickly pulled out my phone to text my mom ~
Me: hey mom i was wondering if you and i could which rooms, cause yours is bigger.
Mamma : Austin… that's too much work, besides my room is the same, as yours.
Mamma : why do you want to move rooms? 
Me : So Suki can have more space and she can make it her room too.
Mamma : why don’t use that really big room downstairs? Will be easier on suki than going up and down those stairs when she’s 48 weeks pregnant. 
Me : big room? Downstairs? We have another room?
Mamma : oh right… you were too little to remember. That room used to be your father's man cave to get away from me and you
Me : oh… so can i use it?
Mamma : yeah… it’s down that hallway by the kitchen. The door at the end of the hall. 
Me : Thanks mamma 
Mamma : welcome sweetie 
~ i locked my phone and put it back in my pocket ~

I look up and suki was sound asleep, slowly put the blankets on her. I quietly walked out the room closing the door softly behind me. Now it’s a good time to look at the room while suki is asleep in my bed.  I walk down the stairs, walking over to the kitchen and there was the hallway my mom was talking about and the door leading to the door. My so called father’s men cave trying get away from my mom and me, but if i was little and what my mom says i can’t remember it; i bet he just made this man cave to get away from me mostly. I get the door and stare at for a good 30 minutes. Hey stupid! You looking at door like a crazy person, yeah i yelled at myself. Who doesn’t yell at themselves? My hands goes to the doorknob to open and i stop when i hear footsteps coming down the hallway towards me. “Are you going to entre the bedroom or just stare at it?” my mom’s voice startled me, i looked at her and frowned. “Probably,” i paused and sigh. “ i can’t open it.” i said in a quiet voice. My mom’s hands felt warm and soft when she took hold of my hands, and she looked up at me. “ i know honey, it’s okay that you don’t want to go into the room. I haven’t been in that room since your daddy left.” she trails off lost in thought. I could see the pain in her eyes, i frowned. It kills me to know my mom isn’t over my father leaving… i have no room to say, but least i’m moving on with my life and my mom needs to do that. “ momma, you need to move on from that, get rid of the pain, he caused you and start living your  life.” i told her and squeezed her hands a little. “ you are right Austin, i need to get over this and stop moping around.” she said and i saw the happiness come back into her eyes. “ why are y’all yelling so much? Said a very sleepy and half awake suki. Damn being pregnant make your hearing better.  I chuckled at her, “ sorry love, momma and i were talking about this room to see if we could make you and i ‘’s room.” i said letting go of my mom’s hands and walking over to suki. “ why?” isn’t your room upstairs okay?” she asked with a frustrated look upon her face. “Not when there’s a baby on the way.” i said looking down at her with a big smile. “ plus it’ll be easier on you so you won’t be going up and down those stairs when you get little bit bigger.” my mom added. Suki looked at us and shook her head. “ what we having for dinner?” she asked with a sheepish smile. “ pizza.” my mom said walking past us. “ i’m gonna go pick it up now, so you two behave.” she said walking to the front door. “ okay, i’ll be back in 45 minutes.” my mom shouted as she crossed the door. “So what’s with this room?” suki turned to look at me and glanced at the door behind me. “ it’s my dad’s man cave and my mom thought it would be easier on you and bigger for the both of us if we moved all of our stuff down here.” i told her and smiled slightly. She nodded and puffed up her lips. “ why don’t we opened it and see what is inside?” she asked me looking into my eyes. I looked down away from her glace, so she wouldn't see my pain. “ i can’t.. Open it, my brain won’t let me and i don’t know why.” i said and my voice cracked like i was gonna cry. I felt her hands grab my face and made me look at her, i knew she saw the pain and the sadness in my eyes by the look on her face. “Baby, that’s why i am here, to help you out when you are in pain and take the burning off your shoulders.” she said and kissed my lips. Man i’m so happy this woman is all mine. The best thing that ever happened in my life. I smiled at her and pulled her close to me to deepen the kiss. Suki pulled away from the kiss and slipped out of my arms, the warmth from her body left with her and i felt cold. I looked over my shoulder , to see her at the door. She turns to look at me with her hands on the doorknob, my heart starts to beat really fast. “Are you ready for me to open the door?” she asked me in a calming voice, i nodded slightly and i watched her open the door that i dare not to open. Don’t know why i’m so scared it just my father's man cave, i know he long gone by now maybe even died and if he is still alive, i bet he forgot about me and mom.  The door clicked open and i quickly tighten up like a deer caught in headlights. Suki’s eyes were on me and her face was masked with worried. “ Austin?” she called my name in a soft quiet voice. “ baby?” she called with a pet name then asked, “ are you okay?” i felt her hand grab mine and i calmed down and relaxed . “ i didn’t suspected to be filled with his stuff.” suki said and stood  beside me. “ okay babe, i think that we will do that, we can talk to mom about that too.” i said and lean down, kissing her forehead. The front door swung opened. “ i got pizza! Hot and ready pizza.! Cheese, pepperoni, meat lovers! Come and get it! My mom yelled.  What are we having a party? I laughed and shook my head as suki and i walked up to the kitchen. “ what are we having a party mom?” i asked chuckling helping her with the pizza. “ well, yeah we having four people here with us austin.” my mom told me and i looked at her like she’s crazy. “ mom, have you gone crazy?” i asked and she sighed, giving me her mamma look. “Boy, there’s you, me, suki, and the baby.” my mom said taking out the plates for the three of us. “ okay, mom.” i laughed and shaked my head, glancing at suki with a smile. I love my family. I have a beautiful girlfriend soon to be my life. I have the greatest mom ever and a baby on the way who isn’t my kid, but that wouldn’t change my love for her or him, so yeah i love my family.






Chapter six


It’s been almost a month since suki moved in with me. Okay a month and a half. We finally got my father’s shit of the room, we all agreed to sell it all on let go, my mom put it all in the garage so when people say they want to buy it, well when the first person text me i’ll tell them our address and give them their prize.  You know what i’m saying right?  Another man’s trash is another's man's treasure?  Anyways my mom said i could use the money we got of my father's shit all goes to the baby stuff.  I let suki design our new room how she want it and not going to lie it’s pretty daman awesome. The walls are blue,  we got a king size bed, the bed frame is blank also gots shelves. Flat screen tv on one wall with bookshelves on either side of for movies and video games. We have one side of the room empty because that’s where all the baby stuff  gonna go. The bathroom is huge and so is the closet like one side is for me and the other side is for her. Pretty awesome right? This room is the best for me and suki, i give it all to my mamma couldn’t done it without her really. Only thing left to do on my list is  get baby stuff, get a ring to marry my best friend, get a better car suitable for children, and maybe a cat or dog, yes, i want to get a pet don’t judge me, i may have a baby on the way, but a man needs his best friend. “ hey baby! I believe i am done with our room until we get the baby stuff.” suki says popping her head out of our bedroom door. I looked over at her and chuckled, i get up from the kitchen table and head towards her. “Wow suki this looks amazing you should totally be a house designer." I told her as I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her neck softly. Suki started to giggle, "you think so? I'm that good?" She asked looking up at me with a shy smile. "Well duh, look you're amazing at this! You even got out fandoms on the wall, the tv with bookshelves for video games and movies, the bed frame is black with bookshelves for us, and we have blue walls! I love blue!" I said and spin her around to face me. "Well, Austin I know you since we were babies, silly. We basically like the same thing." She says kissing my lips. I kissed her back and smile. "That's make us the best couple ever!" I said and picked her up, she quickly wrapping legs around me, she kissed me again though this time it was longer and her passionate. God, she makes me crazy! "Suki..." I breathed getting little bit turned on, by her sexy kiss. "Austin, I know... you don't want to do it with me cause I'm pregnant." Suki says pulling away from the kiss, I set her down on our bed. "No, that's not it, you kinda made my boys little frisky. I would love to make love to you, but only when you're ready. Plus we don't know if it'll hurt the baby." I said sitting down next to her, soon her arms are wrapped around my neck like a boa, but not to light. "No one, had ever said that to me, I wish I saved it for you.." Suki says softly soundly like she's about to cry. "Hey...blue it's okay I don't care about your virginity I care about you. I love you for you and your  personality, the way you make me feel everyday. Your looks and your is just a bonus." I tell her and pull her away to look at her, I kissed her forehead. Suki's face light up in happiness and she let out her adorable giggle. God, I love her cute giggle and I love her. She is my perfect storm. "So? One of these days we'll make love?" Suki asked laying down on the bed more. "Well, yeah, but we gotta worry about our baby if it's a girl or a boy and what names and how much we need to get ready for, plus baby showers and-" I couldn't finish cause I got smacked with a pillow. "Oh, shut it Austin this isn't your baby..." she says softly. I felt my heartbreak and I sigh getting up walking to the door. "It's doesn't have to be my baby by blood, you're my girlfriend and someday my wife and that baby in your belly will be my son or daughter doesn't matter that Cody is the baby's daddy; it takes a boy to make a child, but it makes a man to raise it." I said and walked right out of the door, straight out of the house and into my truck. I love her to death, but fucking hell that pissef me off. So what if I'm not the real baby's daddy imma treat that baby as if it was my own. You know what I'm gonna prove it. Gonna get stubborn, pain in my ass a ring and imma gonna marry that girl. I drove my truck out of the driveway I head to the heft jewelry I know. I got to the store, as I open the door. "Austin!" I couldn't believe it, Jimmy works a Kay's. "Man, you doing okay after Cody's buddies beat you?" I asked walking over to him, Jimmy nods slightly. "Yeah I'm all right it was only Friday and today's Sunday, but thanks to you I wouldn't be standing here today."  He jokes and punches me in the arms then a wave a panic across his face. " Jimmy it's okay, you can punch me playfully I'm not going to hurt you. I promise, you are my best friend now and as a best friend. Can you do me the biggest favor in the world." I said to him and he crossed his arms and raised up his eyebrows. " what's this favor? It better be good cause y'know I'm suki's BGFL." Jimmy says all sassy like and I laughed. "Well, that's a thing you can't tell her..." I say getting all red in the face. "And why is that A?" He asked his voice a little angry. "Not what you think, I'm gonna buy her an engagement ring." I tell him. Some reason I had a feeling he's gonna scream really loudly. "YOU'RE GONNA MARRY HER!" Jimmy screams and nearly jumps out of his pants. Told you so, sometimes I don't him like is all gays like that? Maybe he had locked his inner girl or just hanged out with suki way to much. I put my hand over his mouth and stared at him. "Aren't  you gonna screams again, if uncover your mouth?" I asked, hoping he say no. Jimmy shook his head his face was red in embarrassment, I removed my hand from his mouth. "Omfg, you're gonna marry suki. That's so cute!" He goes on saying. "Jim, you can't tell her I'm trusting you on this. Promise me you won't tell her." I tell him and I watched his face expression and body language. "Of course man. I'll keep this as a secret." Jimmy tells me and I let out a big sigh, I didn't realize I was holding it in. "So let pick out the ring shall we?" He asked me and waving me over to rings as he walks away, I followed him. "Do you have any ideas on the ring, you want to get her?" Jimmy asked me glancing at the rings then at me. "Dude, I have no idea what ring to get her and I known suki since I was a baby!" I said getting a little panicky. "Okay, okay...look I'll help you out on a secret. Suki comes here to look at this one ring all the time, I'll be right back." He says and goes to the back of the store I'm guessing. Wow, she comes here to looks at rings? Hehe that's adorable. "Here the famous rings she looks at, ain't  it gorgeous?" He asked me holding the ring to me. It's a gold ring and it's not just any plain old diamond ring, it's shaped as a rose with diamonds on the petals. I smiled at the ring it definitely the ring I see suki wearing and loving it. " I take it." I say with a big smile on my face. " you know how much it is right?" Jimmy asked with a frown on his face. "Yes, I know I have a saving saving account I was saving for an impala, but she is more important than a car. So yes I will buy it." I said holding out my credit card and he takes it. I know suki will see I am perfect man for her and our kid.









Chapter seven

Jimmy puts the ring in it boxes and handed it to me. We said our goodbyes as I was walking to my truck he ran to me and hugged me. I never got hugged from behind by a guy trust me it was hella weird and awkward for me. Jimmy told me, " Thank you A, for finally opening your eyes and finding out suki's the one for you. Trust me, you make her damn happy." He walked back into the store after that, I got into my truck. I realized I left my phone in my truck and I see my phone blown up with text from suki. Oops? I kinda gave her a tiny heart attacked, I'll get her McDonald's to apologize. I drove into the driveway after I stopped to get food got my lovely sweetheart. Don't say anything about the pet name. I walked into the house and someone's hand came across my face. "Son of a bitch!" I yelled in pain and looked at the attacker and see my mom's pissed off face, I glanced over to suki's puffy eyes and red face from crying. Shit... I'm an ass. I left my heart drop as the site of her, but before I could move I know my mother would have something to say. "Where the hell did you go mister? You left pissed of at your girlfriend. Did you go off to drink your anger away or even more than that?" "Mom." "No don't mom me, you left suki! She came crying to me when you did answer her text or calls." "Mom." I repeated getting a little mad. She really needs to stay out of this, but you know how mothers are. "What?!" She glares at me, I can see the rage of hell on her eyes then I knew she thinks I turned into my father. "Momma... it's not what you think. Yeah I got pissed so I drove to think, I went to a store to talk to Jimmy about something. I got into my trucks realizing I left my phone there so I went to get McDonald's to apologize." I said holding a big bag of food for suki and gave my mom an innocent smile. My mom sighed and looked down. "Aw, son I'm sorry I just-" I pulled her into a hug and smiled. "Ma, it's okay I forgive you. I know you don't want me turning into my father." I saw and kissed her cheek. I love my mom she means well y'know? Just protecting their babies. My mom walked upstairs to her room telling us don't stay up late cause we got school tomorrow. I handed suki her apologize food bag and runs to our room and I chased after jumping on the bed before her. "I beat ya!" I said laughing at her pouty face. "No far, you're the team captain of the football time!" She whining getting on the bed with me and I chuckled. "So? Even if i wasn't we both no I will always be faster." I told her laying back on the bed with my legs hanging off the side. "Well, we will see about that one day." She says chowing down on her burger. "Damn girl ain't you hungry?" I say sitting up looking at her like she grew to heads. " I am feeding for two y'know." Suki say with some sass as she starts on the second burger. I get up from the bed walking over to the closet shaking my head, kicking off my shoes and throwing off my shirt into the dirty basket of clothes. I heard choking cough behind me. "Oh right, I forgot you never saw me naked." I teased and felt something lite hit my back. Those pillows! Imma get killed my one. "Do you want me to change in the bathroom?" I asked turning around to look at her. "Yes please?" Suki says softly and innocent like, I chuckled at her grabbing my pajamas bottoms and head to the bathroom. " I hope you know, I sleep with no shirt on." I called to her in the bathroom as I put my bottoms on. And no boxers, but she didn't need to know that right?  I came out of the bathroom to see her in one of my shirt and totally done with the food I bought her. "I hope you don't mind me stealing your shirt to sleep in." She tells me with a blush on her face. "No, babe not at all, matter face I believe it fits you better than me and looks good on you too!" I said climbing into bed and kissed her cheek. I finally get to sleep next to the most beautiful girl in the world for the first time. I know damn well I'm gonna sleep good tonight. Suki giggled and blushed at me. "I always loved this shirt of yours, this was the shirt I got you for your seventh birthday and I remembered your face that was priceless. It was the happiest I have seen you after your best friend passed." She said with a soft voice, I saw her eyes light up when talking about the shirt. It had supernatural on it...okay more like dean Winchester on it. Can a guy have a man crushed? Is bad thing? When she started talking about my best friend the light in her eyes started to die. I scooted close to her and wrapping my arms around her. "Hey, Shane was the best friend I could ever have. Fate is weird like that baby, she takes you when it's your time to go and even if it's means going out with a bring." I said softly laying back on bed, suki out her head on my bare chest. "He's in a better place with all the ones we lost; all together watching over us." Suki tells me and leans up, kissing my lips. "Goodnight baby, don't stay up too late thinking on it. Please don't overthink it'll cause you nightmare." She says curling up to me and closing her eyes. I sigh softly looking up at the ceiling. Okay,Shane grew up with me and suki, but I was closer to him that she was. Long story short, my seventeenth birthday he got into a car cash by a drunk driver and was sent to the hospital. I stay with him the whole day on my birthday, even when he gave his last breath. Shane was the brother I never had...I miss him. I finally drift off to sleep with my arms around my babygirl
 ~ "you said it yourself... its fate... she tells you when it's your time to go..." she begins to cough and tears roll down her face. "Now...it's my turn... never thought I'll be leaving this earth at 20... just turned too ain't that funny?" She let out her giggled. "No...suki...you can't leave me...our babies need you... I need you." Suki touched my face her thumb rubbed my cheek. "It's going to be okay I promise my time has come our boys will do fine without me cause they have a strong daddy like you...I love you Austin..." The heart monitor went flat. I dropped to my knees little footsteps ran over to me. "Daddy?" ~ 
"AUSTIN!" I woke up to suki screaming I started to panic about her and my nightmare. "MOM! CALL 911 ASP!" I yelled, I smelled blood. I see blood on suki, I picked her up and ran her down the hallway out to the door ambulance came pulling up and running towards me, they took her out of my hands. "No! What, why are you taking her away from me..." I whined feeling a panic attack coming on. The paramedics didn't answered me, but they kept doing there jobs, the doors to the ambulance closed to the cat couldn't hear what he said before the door closed and I clasped on the ground. "Austin get up and get into my car we're going to the hospital. I promise you she'll be back in your arms before you know it." My mom helped me into her van and we drove to the hospital where suki will be I still had her blood on me. Please! Please! Please be a dream! I get it don't over think at night! Let me wake up now! I can't lose her! I ran into hospital, asked the front desk are keeping her. they tell me the room, but they said family only. I yelled, " I am her damn family!" I ran to her room, I froze seeing her hooked up to those machines made me think long and hard. I pulled a chair by her hospital bed and sat down, grabbed her hand and hold it. Tears began to roll down my face. "I can't lose you.. I'll be losing everything my world, my soulmate, my best friend... please be okay... I beg you... please." My voice trail off. She's going to wake up and when she does I'm going to marry her.





Chapter eight 


My mom walked in out of breath, probably chasing after me, i knew it was her without looking up. “Son, she’s going to be okay it’s just blood, you get that when you’re pregnant. I had, when i was pregnant with you.” she told me walking over to me and rubbed my back. I sigh and looked up at my mom, tears still running down my cheeks. “Momma, you don’t understand… i had a dreams that she passed away and i had to take care of my two kids.. Im so scared to lose my whol efucking world.” i told her as she wiped away my tears. “ honey, she’s not gonna die, she’s just sleeping the doctor gonna come in soon so we can all go together.” she said and kissed my forehead. “