Category : Stories

Sub Category : YoungAdult

I just wanted someone to care. I wanted someone to hold me, someone to wipe my tears. Someone to tell me it would be okay when I didn't have any fight left in me. People came and went. They told me they'd always be there, and I knew they were lying, but that feeling of having someone care for me always won. And when they left..I broke a little more each time. And it happened over and over until I couldn't take it anymore. 

I couldn't believe what I was reading..but I should have expected it right? "Iloveyou but I don't know what else to say. If you wanna go, go." He was giving up on me. I had been with this boy for almost a year. I had let my wall down. I had put my trust in him. And he was walking away just like everyone else had. But it was my fault. Eveything was my fault. 
My sight was blurry from the tears. I felt my heart breaking. I had planned to be with him for the rest of my life. Now i didn't have anything to keep fighting for. I dragged myself out of bed and went to the bathroom. The girl in the mirror looking back at me looked like she was already dead. I grabbed the bottle of pain pills from the cabinet and dumped them out on the counter. I filled my cup with water, and downed a handful. Then another. I made my way to the bathtub and closed the curtain. I held my blade in my hand, watching it shine in the light. I closed my eyes and pressed down as hard as I could. The pain was worse than anything I had ever felt in my life. I'd been cutting for years, but this was a new level of excruciating. I bit my lip as I slid the blade down my forearm. I opened my eyes and almost fainted from the sight of all the blood. I felt nauseous, but I didn't dare throw up, I needed those pills to stay down. I suppressed my screams as I slid the blade over the open wound again and again, until the pain was too unbearable. 

I laid there crying, my arm throbbing, blood everywhere, and I waited. It felt like years before I was too weak to keep my eyes open. I heard my phone ringing in then other room, but it was too late..then everything went black.