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.... Why...... Why does this have to be me...... Why does god continue to ignore my prays. I'm tired of my life but I'm sure he doesn't care frankly no one cares with destroys the purpose of writing this, but I don't care anymore. I don't care what god has in store for me cause I know its nothing and to all you idiots that say you control your destiny you say that because you are successful in your life. I'm a 19 year old teen that tried to join the marines but failed miserably, and now is back home a failure but its ok I'm use to failure. I had friends at one point in my life but that's dead now, right next to my feelings on this world. I tried, I really did but that doesn't count for shit. I don't judge people that kill themseves anymore because they took the easy way out, and let's be honest we all will take the easy way out. I remember when I was young my grandma use to tell me shit about god and what he did for us, no I don't know why she tells something she heard from those idiots that kept that chain going. We only believe in God because we was taught that. I promise if we wasn't taught that bullshit all the time some of us wouldn't know what god or the rules we follow. Those rules have made people pretend to be something they aren't. I was the same way but now I follow my own believes fuck what anyone thinks. I hope our president trump does stat a war that destroys the entire world. If he does that he will be my her because he freed me from my life, he freed me from this curse god put on me. I prayed for god to take my life and give it to someone who doesn't want to die but these prayers go through one ear and out the other. As far as I'm concerned I'm not one of god child's, he doesn't care about us, and just watches. I can go outside and give someone a penny I bet thats more than what god has done for them their entire life.
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Hi, may I say something to your thoughts and feelings? My Enlish is not really good, so please forgive my silly mistakes ;) I wanted to say, that I understand you. Of course there are people suffering and children do not have something to eat or to wear. But please do not blame the Allmighty for the faults of the humanity. I can just advice you to keep praying. Have patience and trust in God. He is everywhere and sees even the darkest edge of our heart. And still He forgives us our sins. I was born as a muslima but I had the same thoughts and I did not understand why all this is happend. I had to learn to put my trust in the Allmighty. Please do not worry, my intention is clear and I am not here to persuade you to something. I reed your text and I wanted to help you or to say good words. This life is a test. We all have to pass it and to go through it. God would not do something bad to you if that would not help you. You may not relieze it know but you will. Look, is this world not wonderfull? There are no destinys or something else. It exists only the power of God and His WILL. The humanity became sick and they are focused only to money or success. The empathy is losted. The Islam is a family. I mean the real Islam and not the Religion with force and violence that the media is showing everywhere. Trust in God and you will find peace :) May God help us all to became better humans. I hope I did not insult or did something wrong to you with that comment. Greetings :)
Nov 10, 2017
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Jean Gorney
You can't blame God for what you do in your life. God does help those who help themselves. He doesn't sit around just making life easy for you. If He answered every prayer you ask like you wanted Him to you would not be a very good person very week and unsatisfied. We need to learn things through trial and error. By your writing it sounds like you could use some more education. Maybe you should learn a trade that you like. Put some effort into making your life better instead of whining. Trades are becoming more and more important as colleges empty out so many looking for easy street. Others will like and respect you if they see you doing something. Volunteer somewhere. It makes you feel really good to help others. My children were so proud of their first cars and tell me so many times. I would have taken that joy away from them if I had bought them each a car. God does love you and that is why he doesn't give you everything you want. Sometimes I'm glad a prayer was answered "No." I have had more than my share of answered prayers. God loves you but to feel His love you have to love Him first. I wish you happiness and good luck on your journey to turn your life around. May God Bless you.
Nov 10, 2017