Category : Diary/Journal

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Growing up I thought nothing bad happened in the world. Now older, I'm sitting here thinking about all the bad things that have happened.. All the people I have lost.. About seven months ago, there was this guy, Landon, he was my best friend. I'd known him for about two and a half years... We told each other everything. I ended up falling in love with him. He knew this, and led me to believe he felt the same. But I didn't want anything to change between us.. So when he asked me out one day I said no... The next day he ask another girl out.. her name is Alyssa.. A couple weeks later, we had barely spoken since everything happened,he told me he hated me... All I wanted was to die in that moment. It's been almost eight months now.. They are still together... I'm still in pain.. and he still isn't in my life anymore... All I think about everyday is "that could have been us but I fucked up." I don't know what to do.. I feel like I'm slowly losing myself, always wondering if I made the right choice saying no, wondering if the pain will ever go away.. Ever since he told me he hated me it seems everything has changed.