Category : Diary/Journal

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Truth is, I know the affliction of addiction ..believe me it has been a love/hate relationship but one of which I have sadly, whether consciously or unconsciously chosen. We aren't powerless over drugs or alcohol but weakened by the allure of escaping. You pathologically make yourself believe that you have no other choice, you can't live without it, or self sabotage. While I used I began to accept less and less for and from myself and eventually became nothing and felt like nothing would save me. Many are not able to acknowledge the fact that drugs are not the problem in this world, we are and when we can finally admit that we will begin to realize the real lies with real eyes;). We take what we want over what we need and what we need is to just be and not self impose suffering on ourselves, this physical human experience is about the duality of polarity, while it may seem like  we're out of control for experiencing such  extremes of both ends of the spectrum, it was so we could truly appreciate love and kindness. "For without the dark there would be no light" finally awakened by becoming conscious from within rather then about external wants, I try to choose now what I deserve over what I desire because wants(hate) are clever and divides and needs(love) are intelligent and includes...we must all come together because I am you as you are me, and we are one. And all as one will conquer all