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I feel like I have always wanted to reach the level of enlightenment took quite some time but it seems as if I have finally mentally and emotionally reincarnated. 
I was so oblivious, careless, self-destructive and lifeless. That will happen when you allow yourself to fall into that deep dark abyss lurking in your mind.It was as if I was on auto pilot at times, leading my perishable vessel to nosedive right into complete oblivion. 

I am mortal, I can’t survive everything and will have to face the inevitable. 
There is no more fear of the inevitable in me, I am finally set free from the shackles that were so tightly restraining me to the nightmare I imprisoned myself in. 
I don’t want to live forever, I want to be remembered and make some sort of mark while I am here, memories were made and are still to be made. 

I see now, what we do here, what we improve, what we destroy, how many lives we touch will become a memory. Might be a good one, might be a bad one but after we pass we will only be living through memories of those effected by us. 
Mistakes were made by all of us, how you recover after will show a lot of character. Everyone has their own personal belief of where we go after we leave our vessel here on earth. 

Heaven, hell, whatever it may be is your own beliefs. No one should tell you what to believe in. I say this because what I believe in is myself. No, I’m not being conceded or self-righteous, not at all. 

You see, what I believe is while I am here on earth growing, learning and experiencing, I am the one in control. No one can tell you who you are, what to think, how to feel, that’s only if you allow them to manipulate your mind. 

You see, 24 years of living here in this human vessel, I allowed so many people and so much in my past to influence my perception of reality. A reality that I had a personal choice on how to view it and how to live in it. Free will, we all have it, still people have others run their life.
Life got blurry, life just began to speed up while I slowed down. I just never tried to catch up with what was going on, my perception needed some work. Living my life in negative ways that could have been prevented. 

My perception needed some support, with a simple idea, whispered in my head.This soft whisper, one that could have or has been ignored or spoken over by others was the cause of this enlightenment. 
It grew, that distant whisper.
It was becoming more familiar.
Now I hear the voice clearly, it’s mine. 
A voice repressed by the influences, experiences and most of all lack of independence made others voices infect my thoughts, emotions and beliefs with their personal beliefs and morals. 
People pray and practice what they believe in, it gives them hope throughout this life until the unknown transition to where they personally believe they go to. 

No one should say anyone’s beliefs are wrong, we won’t ever know where they go, we just know where we go ourselves. Yet we will have those self-righteous people knock you on what you believe but get mad she. You counter their ignorance…

Someone once told me, 

"Enlightenment will be achieved once I get to heaven" 

I didn’t think much of it but if that is the case, enlightenment was achieved just a few days ago.

This Enlightenment caused me to see the world completely differently than I use to. All caused by a voice within I wasn’t too familiar with. 

As I began to listen to the voice I began to realize things getting better, things got done that usually never get done and I started seeing things in ways I’ve never seen before. 

Intrigued and accepting to the clearness in my views of life now made me smile as I heard *my voice* in my head proudly say,

"You did this, you’re in control.“ 

Enlightenment has been achieved….

Signed,
ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.