Category : Diary/Journal

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I have had so much hate from my own brother with all the words he said to me that has destroyed my spirit,i miss the really me

There are smudges on the mirror that shows how i look 

But i always thought i was a mistake to this world and it hurts, i want to cry in my sleep but i can't

yet i am still trying to find my self in this world it is hard you know but i might kill my self when i am 14 years old which is not that far away but i am going to go to a new school that's good right? NO IT ISN'T i found someone who loves me back for who i am but i can't see her anymore 

i hope that someone one day will look up at me and say i am here for you; you are not alone; if you want to talk we can talk no matter what i am here for you

i would smile and hug you but that has never happened to me. the pain gets worse and worse by the minute. my brother won't stop he kipped saying how annoying i was and how no one will love me but yeah it hurt so i asked him a question would you care if i died and do you want to know what his responds was no it was no the is emotional abuse and that hurt a lot he doesn't know me that well at all; i have depression and it hurts a lot cause of him i can't tell my mom cause she would say oh thats from the past oh jut ignore him and all that i would hurt even more i just want to die but i am waiting until my birthday i made a voice recorder with a passward that is 357 it stands for love and i am lesbian so i also stands for i love rene my friend that loves me back for who i am i makes me happy that someone loves me for me 

but my brother still makes me want to die it hurts a lot for a long time i have been trying to ignore him but then he hurts me and i don't like it i tell him to stop but no he keeps hurting me and i am just so done i hate my life i hate it so bad i just want to die i love my family but i am so done with life who know one person can make you that broken i guess i wasn't ready for it but whats a sun without a little rain right; it hurt and if you are reading this you are not alone you have me who wants to die i hope one day i can see the light some day i hope that the future will be bright and shine like the stars in the sky

each day i get worse and worse because he can't learn to take a HINT 

i love him but he HATES ME SO MUCH

it hurts so much i hope i am not alone and i hope it will get better soon cause i can't dea with this i gave him to many chances and i can't stop him i am not strong enough or good enough i love him 

if i would die i would say goodbye with no questions asked and i would just die on my birthday

i love you all and no this is not the last time i am going to be on here 







i might have found another one of my family members and i am like wwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaattttttttttt  and just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa WHAT it is so crazy btw sub to my uncle brandon he is the best love yea  and diaryish out