Category : Books-Fiction

Sub Category : Drama

I screwed up more then i ever had in my life.
Im a single mom my name is theresa i have 5 kids.

I had a really bad life but i looked for the good in life not anymore because the good in life was taken away from me.
My daughter.

I use to go on and on about my love life to her and she would listen she used to come in my room and say "so lady what happen" and i would tell her everything. (Im tearing up just tearing up talking about it) it was that night that took it all 10/28/17 Saturday. 9:00 late afternoon. We just finished dinner my son was at aboy scout trip and i had my two girls we just finished dinner and so i ask my oldest daughter Maria to take are dog to the bathroom. If i only knew i would have never told her to take are dog out. She had been gone for about 5 minutes so much happened in those 5 minutes. turns out there was someone the cops were looking for.


(Daughter in the moment and her thoughts)

I knew something was wrong as soon as i went outside there were the cops circling around the block and they were tell people to get inside but they didn't talk to me. This giy was wearing a black walking the same way i was i thought nothing of it then he stopped standing right in front of me. Then the cops say freeze and back away from her slowly i realized this was the guy they were looking for. He gives them a smile with throws them off guard and grads me by the neck i drop my dogs lease and she runs to are house (we were in the parking lot at my house so i knew that my dog was running to are doar and if i screamed my family would hear it) he said drop your weaps coppers or the girl dies then he pulled a knife to my neck and i knew he wasn't trying to mess with the cops he was serious. The cops thought he was bluffing so they said you wouldn't we have you corned. He said this and these were the last words i ever heard ok if thats what you think. And he stabs me in the heart and runs and all the cops go after him accept one. As the person stabs me in the heart i scream as loud as i could "MOM" and thats was my last word.

Are dog came back but my daughter didnt i knew there was something wrong.
I hear her scream mom and my heart felt like it would stop i run outside and see the most horrible thing i have ever seen in my whole life. There was a cop and.......... My daughter on the floor with a knife stabbing her heart in a poodle of blood. Her face is the one thing that made me feel the most painful feeling in the world, she had tears on her face her face all beat up and the pain in her eyes that i wasn't there to save her.
I get on the floor screaming and crying at the same time i hold my daughters lifeless body in my arms. People say that losing your child is more painful then any pain in the world i found out that was ture the hard way.
I was broken after that my children are the ones caring for me they know this is hard its hard on them as well losing her. Months past and i still cant sleep at night i fell so alone in this world but i know shes in a better place with my parents but the thought of her gone brings me to my knees we leave her stuff the was it is it's like its frozen in time like nothing ever happened. I look through her  photos she had the moat beautiful smile. I find a photo she kept in her necklace it was a picture of us together she use to say it was the best day of her life.

Its been a year now and i am in a point were i cant take it anymore the restless nights the horrible mornings so this is why my childern i cant be here anymore you all are grown up you have each other you'll ne fine but im not but i will be im joining your sister i will see you all later in a better happier place. For i am joining my best friend. 
My daughter.