Category : Books-Non-Fiction

Sub Category : History

August 5th 2009

   It all started when i worked so hard and exercised my patience and day dreamed listening to music to get a crown victoria i was so low in self pity i said fuck it ill eventually get another and leftvit at the greyhound bus station. How sad i barely recognized it was now sitting three inches lower than when i had got it a few weeks prior. I knew my Ma and Pa wont be the least surprised but Mr Homer the car dealership owner will probably be pissed. I knew thats something else my parents would be embarrassed about because they were good friends with mr homer .Oh well i figured i would never see neither of them again anyways and i really had no intention on it at the time. It must've been meant for me to meet my schedule because cause i woke up just in time without a alarm clock to make it here to catch my bus to Florida. I was  scheduled to arrive a little past 4pm. Never been big on taking naps but i felt as if my brain could use a break already. No cigarette no nothing 4 lousy dollars in my pocket. At least i could afford to get a sweet tea from McDonald's. I felt like a stupid young man because ive spend all that money within a 2 day span.( Little did i know spending money would turn out to be one of the few bad habits i would aquire over time) Hey at least i went out like a champ because i bought my ticket and rode around for 2days with my friends partying. I dont remember the bus ride that much except a Christian lady i shared a seat with when i got to Tallahassee gave me a pamplet about christ. Typical actions for a church going lady. I can't believe im actually going through with this i also would be saying that little phrase alot in both good and bad situations. I knew my brother red phone number by heart he's had the same number for years. I dont really remember the intro into the city like looking at the big buildings and stuff, i just figure it wasnt a moment for me to cherish. I smelled a familiar aroma so i was like Let me see what this guy is talking about cause what he's smoking on defiently smells awesome.The old man was cool as shit and smoked a joint with me. After that i was like I think im going to like this city. I haven't been here five minutes and someone has already shown me some smokers hospitality. And then my ride showed up it was my sister n law and my neice my brother sent her to pick me after i called him he was surprised that i showed up in jax. I used the excuse of us having a phone conversation a few weeks earlier when he said yeah man i got a spot for you when you get here. I knew he was saying when i come to visit but i acted like i didnt comprehend the conversation. I also talked with my neice around that time i talked to my brother. Which is his daughter only difference is i asked her if i could come live with her. But between her and my brother they had no clue that my parents were kicking me out. But i knew so! with all that said i had two good excuses of why i would just pop up in Florida. And i damn sure used them excuses too and being the mastermind i am they backfired just the way i knew they would but i got in the door just like i knew i would. I mean i just traveled a few hundred miles they wouldn't just not let me in right? If your know my people like i do then you know anythings possible. But im a risk taker and i took the risk. Now if your wondering how my neice was old enough to have a place thats because my brother had her when he was 14 and hes 25 years older than me. Now i knew what i was doing but i still had to feel the effects from my brother and sister n law and neice about moving from one city to another with no money talking about living with someone. But i had a little backup plan on that. But yeah i got my foot in the door. Jacksonville was boring until my brother started putting me out the house at 5:00 am when him and his wife went to work which is my. sister n law i like to just refer to her as my sister because of all my sisters i really felt like i could talk to her and she understands certain situations about me and how im a fuck up in life. I became a honorary friend to her friends and eventually i left the front porch i use to sit on at 5:00 in the morning. I met a few people but my closest friend i had when started hanging in the warm but cold blooded streets of Jacksonville was Mike Mike. Mike Mike stayed at the other stop sign of dignan street so we hung out everyday and he enlightened me alot on the neighborhood city and people. I could tell he was a genuine friend i even refered to him as a brother he was a selfless guy. Gave me a brand new pair of shoes, and showed me the proper way to make a come up and just kept it real. I noticed he was going through his own struggles barely having a place to stay and neighborhood issues. But my bro isnt no chump and as soon as you think otherwise he and depending on the situation we was going to prove it too you. I looked forward to each day cause i knew i had a friend i could associate with. I met other people through mike mike that eventually became associates but the best thing he did was take me to Crystal street. Now around this time i had done graduated from smoking just plain weed to lacing my weed with cocaine and putting a little of it up my nose as well. On there corner of Crystal street lived a single mom of 3 girls. Now when mike mike took me to her house discovered that this white chick i had seen in the neighborhood lived here and was the oldest of the 3. I originally was there to try to have sex with the mom but i came to realize i would rather have the daughter. I pursued it too and we hit it off for about a week or so. That caused minor confusion because her mom took it as me going from her to her daughter so she felt played but only on a minor level. Overall she turned out to be a good resource at the time because winter was right on top and i needed a place to go when i had to be up and out my brothers house in the mornings. During these times the oldest daughters best friend also stayed in the home. Weeks down the road a older white lady came to the house to see the older daughters best friend and at the time i didn't know the friend was mixed i thought she was a black girl. Until mike mike said thats her mom. Somehow me and the older white lady ended up face to face at the kitchen counter. Its was instilled in me growing up to make eye contact with whom ever i talk to a grown up/ respect factor. So when i was speaking to the older white woman and made eye contact i was nearly overwhelmed with the beauty in her eyes. And i almost blurted it out in front of everyone. Ive always had moments in my life when my brain would say do or say this but my conscience would would say no all within a split second in my mind. I managed to catch this outburst and hold it in.