Category : Poems

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I was lying on the ground, lost inside, no turn around. I was scared of what came next, crying while I burn my last cigarette. This love could not move on, dead inside, I could no longer hide. Wrapped around this dream of success and power, of you and me, the poison filled my doubt, but the love grew stronger. There was no way out.

Redemption starts to fill the void and I could not help but to feel paranoid that starting over was not new and foiled plans would fall right through. The moment stuck to realize that almost was just not enough. As I slipped into a slow demise, I asked if I was even worth it. He said, “Yes.”

I looked for answers, but none were found. Reached for the stars, but stuck to the ground. Longing for some hope I failed to find, I hate to see you look so sad. I took a peek at our old photographs and you were blissful then, but in the darkness now. How did you let it get this far? Try to cover up your deepest scars. Left to fall to shambles and with the Devil, you did gamble. Tried to cover up the real with something new, but you were left behind with nothing too.

“Son, why are you doing this? You looked aside the realness forgetting who you once were and became trapped inside a life of blur. You were fine before, so what happened now? You are letting your hope dig further down. But who am I to tell you how to live? This is the first we spoke and I have nothing to give. Remember who you are and you will not be alone. Forget the ones who hurt you and simply forgive. You are more than a bottle and you are more than all of these years. You are supposed to live with doubt because it strengthens you from the inside out. You stopped to talk and I am here to listen, but answer yourself to see what you are missin’. In the end, you ask me if it is all worth it and I say yes.”

(August, 2016)