Category : Stories

Sub Category : Romance

I started noticing this tall and handsome guy. Every time I looked at him, I always saw him looking at another girl. I wondered about how to direct his attention to myself. Everyday, I would always look at him fixing his hair as I was on the stage and everytime he does, I see nothing but him and flowers around. Before I knew it, my simple gestures of trying to direct his focus on me bore fruit and I started to notice something odd everytime I looked at him. It always felt as if he was looking at me. Then came the quiz bee competition and we were on the same team. We laughed together and felt disappointed together. Everything around us felt so irrelevant to me. I started to think of ways on how to get him to notice me again. I wanted him to look at me again with a face full of smiles, eyes full fo excitement and do another high five with his big and warm hands. As I started to recall my memories with him, I realized that I may have already started to like him not just as a friend, a schoolmate, a senior but as a guy. Days after that, I tried to remain composed but everytime I saw him, I would always look away and try to start useless conversations with my friends. Knowing our conversation had no particular topic, he would quietly snicker amd pass by us without making it seem like he noticed but I know that he already knows about how I feel for him. Days like those were like my everyday life. It all kept going on and on until I found a way to communicate with him without knowing who I am. I created a fake account on facebook and added him. I started to chat with him and he replied immediately. I guess I really do have luck with messenger and facebook. That was what I thought but suddenly, the image of his profile with another girl flashed into my mind. My chest hurt and I had a little difficulty breathing. It was just my wild  imagination to have thought I have gotten closer to him in a special and different way than other girls. Sadness, fear and anxiety overlapped the happiness I felt and everything around me became colourless for a split-second. It was as though I went back to my past wherein my world had no color and every facial expression I made were all fake and insincere. As the pain went on, I still couldn't turn my sight away from him but everytime I saw his face, I remember the photo which I hated so much. "What could I have done to avoid this kind of situation?" I asked even though I knew the answer that I, myself, am not even worth to take a picture with so I don't have to bother stressing myself out just because his affairs. The insincere thoughts overflowed and turned to tears. Everything that I have felt for him was maybe just an illusion created by my self-centeredness. I completely lost hope and couldn't pick myself up from the tragedy I was burried in. I stopped passing by his room every morning, lunch and dismissal time. I stopped initiating conversations with him. I stopped staring at him. I stopped my mind from thinking about him. But what I really couldn't stop was my heart from loving him. I guess he noticed all the changes in my behavior and in my emotions. He started a conversation with me for the first time asking me for a favor to like the picture of his girlfriend. My vision blacked out, I couldn't hear anything nor could I feel anything. There were only the echoing sounds of his voice telling me to support his girlfriend. I got ahold of myself and calmed down but as I calmed down. Everything was in black and white and I could only feel my tears falling down. I smiled and wiped away my tears to hide the hurt I felt. I just answered ok and everything became awkward between us. Thank God, my friend saw us and came to my rescue. I was brought back to life and felt nothing anymore. I then focused on my studies. The results of the grading period came out and I was on top. Everyone knew my name and I was looked up to even by my upperclassmen. After that, I joined an interschool pageant and won. The number of my suitors rose tremendously. They swarmed around our school asked for my number and gave my chocolate and flowers everday. I was even asked out in front of a big crowd and I agreed because I knew he was there watching me. Later that day, I asked myself if I was happy and I realized I was not and that I could only be happy if I was with him. As I was running towards him, I saw him and a girl in front of his room kiss. I fell down to my knees but got up and ran as fast as I could. I went to our secret hideout before and hid there, quietly crying. He chased after me. He saw me in that one corner and asked me what was wrong. Without thinking, I accidentally spilled the beans and told him how I felt for him. He was shocked then blushed after a while. I was astonished to have seen him blushing but I hid that and attempted to run away again. That was the time when he caught me and said to me not to leave. More tears came and I almost passed out. He explained to me why he was kissing the girl. I loved him to the point where I lost sight of who I was and of the fact that I will be leaving his colorful world in no time. I asked him if he liked me even for a little bit. He was in grade 11 and I was in grade 7 but I didn't hesitate to ask my senior such a question. He was silent for a while and his grip was loosening up so I used the chance to hide away once again to hide my shame and anger. I took a break from school for a month. I wondered if he was thinking of me or if he wasn't. During the month, I had been preparing to carry out the plan my family had thought of since I was in grade 4 that I would be introduced as the only heiress of the school and that our family was the owner of a large corporation. I went back after a month and noticed that nothing had changed even when I wasn't around. As I was walking to the stage wearing a completely different uniform, everyone looked at me including him. I noticed the aura around him wasn't very energetic and that he was kind of stressed but kept it to himself.