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                Lost

I never thought that i could feel so lost in my life.
This happened after i lost my parents.
I turned to weed to make my pain go away.
I stopped after i noticed that lossing two parents back to back would be something i was going to have to deal with.
                 Lost
I lost a life that is so hard for me to breathe and live without. I found myself being jealous of people who still have there parents.
I lost mine when i was 16 and 17.
So did my baby sister also we have the same mother and different father. I lost my joy, my smile, my reason to live until i gained custody of my sister who had turned 17.
I lost my faith in ever being happy, and found my self sad all the time. 
                 Lost
Years later i lost my grandma right before my 18th birthday and my health began to affect my work and me.
I lost my job due to anxiety attacks on the job.
I was told to go the hospital to find out wat the hell was going on.
Found out that i am a manic depression and i suffer from anxiety.

             I lost so much but gained my lil sister whom means the wotld to me. I lost so much but am trying to gain motivation, life, trying to find peace, love, and happiness.
Sometimes i dont know when will i when. Sometimes tge depression and anxiety sneaks up on me like a bill in the mailbox. Instead of taking it day by day i take it minute after minute because i dont know what else will i lose.